Sleep, Valentines Day and Regrets
Towards the end of a pregnancy, a mother will wake up to go to the bathroom every few hours. I think this is the body’s way of preparing you for a newborn and the sleepless nights that come along with it. Layla now spends most of her days sleeping. 30-45 minutes after she wakes up, she is ready to lay down and sleep again. Is this God’s way of preparing me for all the quiet time that is coming soon? The house is quiet. I am able to go through the motions of laundry, dishes, cooking and picking up without interruptions. But I WANT interruptions. I WANT Layla to be under my feet asking for cookies. I WANT to hear her playing with her toys. I WANT to take 45 minutes to unload the dishwasher because she keeps trying to help. For every time I uttered the words “I just can’t get anything done with these kids under my feet all day” I am eternally regretful. The days that I looked forward to naptime so I could get a grocery list made, or finally fold all the piles of laundry…I regret those days too. If I could do it all again, I’d enjoy EVERY SINGLE WAKING MOMENT I had with her. I would never wish for her to sit still or take a nap or go to bed early. I would never look forward to the days when she could sit through an entire episode of Dora silently. I would treasure every second with her.
So I’ve spent the last few days in a quiet house, able to do whatever my heart desires. But all I want to do is wake her up and hold her. She doesn’t really want to be held much anymore. She prefers to be rocked in her dark bedroom for a little while, then laid down in her bed. She gets easily overstimulated by the noise of the other children downstairs. She wants dark, silence, peace and sleep. So we give those things to her. As much as it breaks my heart to not be able to hold her all day, I know her little body needs peace and sleep.
We have tried to put her in our bed with us but she screams. I’ve tried to rock her in my room, but she just cries. She wants familiarity. Her own bed. Hospice told us that when the time comes that we shouldn’t leave her side (i.e, she only has a few hours or days), she won’t know where she is and won’t put up a fight about sleeping with us. She’ll only open her eyes for a few minutes at a time.
We had plans to visit family in Oklahoma this week, to go to the zoo, the beach, the rodeo…outside to play. That will not happen. We had family pictures taken last week and I’m so happy we did. We can hardly get Layla to say a word, let alone give us a smile or lift her head up long enough for pictures. Family has come over to visit her the past few days without success. She doesn’t want to leave her room and they have come and gone without being able to hold her, talk to her, and some instances even see her. Our Pastor came by yesterday and we started making some funeral arrangements. At the end of his visit, he asked if we would like to have her baptized. We said YES and he baptized her right there in our kitchen. She was very peaceful and didn’t cry or make any noise during it. I truly feel like God was holding her in his hands and comforting her.
She is hooked up to a morphine pump and had a dose of Dexamethasone on Saturday. Sunday morning she ate 4 bowls of cereal and was in a fairly good mood. She sat up in my lap long enough to open her Valentine’s present and watch some tv. Since then, it has been a steady decline.
Please pray for her comfort; both physically and spiritually. Please pray that she knows how much God loves her and she isn’t scared about what she is feeling and what is happening. Please pray for minimal pain and suffering. Please pray for Claire and Jenna. They are so confused and uncertain about what is happening. They cannot fully grasp the finality of her impending death. I can hardly grasp the finality of what is happening.
Here are a few pictures of her FIRST bubble bath since May of last year (these were taken February the 12th), and Valentine’s morning.
Shanna, I am praying for you, but I wanted you to know that as I read your latest blog I was struck by your strength and courage. You are an amazing woman and I know that somehow, God will be glorified in this fight. Our whole family is praying for you and your family!
With Much Love!
Shanna, That was absolutely heart wrenching…I have learned thru your journey that a little help unloading the dishwasher and all the screaming abd playing under my feet is good, it’s great! Because I know you would give anything to have it all again! Praying for you daily…
God Bless her! And all of your family
She is adorable. I am glad to know her story. It’s very humbling.
It does not seem fair that a child should be taken so soon. I can’t grasp it or understand it. I can’t think about this w/o crying. I pray for you all and for Layla. May God be with you all.
I am praying for you all. Layla is so loved by so many and she knows in her heart that God loves her and she will have peace. I wish that I could help in any way other than pray, but it’s all I, am my own family have at this time. I have followed Layla and you on Twitter for almost a year with hope and my heart breaks for you and her that she has had to suffer this battle. You are both so brave and amazing. I hold you in my heart today as I go about my daily tasks and I take to heart the things you said about wanting to wish away time and wanting a little peace and quiet. You forget how precious it all is until you get a reminder like the one you just shared.
God Bless you and your precious family. I hope that Layla can allow you to hold her soon and cuddle her as you so must want to do.
Much love, hope, prayer and hugs,
Tricia and family xoxoxo
Crying my eyes out with every post and tweet. Praying for many precious moments for your family. Beautiful little Layla.
I share Sarah’s sentiments. My daughter is a handful and I’ve caught myself many times wishing for peace and quiet. But since I’ve been reading your blogs, I find myself wanting to wake her up and hold her and try to appreciate every moment with her- and I think of you and Layla every time I do. Constantly praying for you and your family.
Shanna,
Thank you for sharing your emotions with us. Thank you for helping us realize how precious time is. Most of all, thank you for letting us love your entire family. Madeline just received her Layla Grave tutu and she loves wearing it and marching around. I will never forget the power Layla’s story has had on the world…it is truely remarkable!
Jenny Milano
Shanna, your tremendous faith and strength never fails to amaze me.
I just want you to know that Layla Grace has inspired so many of us all over the world to appreciate and embrace life.
God bless you all.
wow..what a blog..Don’t ever feel guilty for any of those things. We are do it. I am guilty of the same thing but thru your story I am going to enjoy those things. You are a great mom and wife. You are an amazing women and your courage is beyond words. I just can’t imagine what you are going thru. My heart hurts for your family. Kayla and I will allways remember Layla. She has taught me so much…We are still praying for you daily.
As I read your blog entry through sobs and tears, I am so moved by your strength and wisdom. I am amazed by you, Shanna. Our family is praying constantly for Layla Grace. We are in continuous dialogue with our Lord, lifting all of you up. There are no words to express the sadness that we feel for all that you are going through. Please know that you are loved and prayed over. Layla Grace has changed who we are and how we love. To God be the glory for this precious angel baby.
I’m not a mother, and at 24, I don’t know for sure if I’ll ever be a mother. But reading through the entries make me cry. You have so much strength as does Layla. I pray for Layla, for your, and for your family. It’s so sad to think of a young child lost so young, but I know God has a plan and that He will be glorified. And praise the Lord that the battle has already been won and that there exists a place where pain is no more. I will continue to pray for you and your family.
Shanna,
I cannot begin to imagine what you are going through. I pray for you and Layla daily. But, like many have said before, THANK YOU for helping me realize how much those little moments should be appreciated and not wished away. I pray that God is with you during this difficult transition and that he keeps his healing hand on your entire family.
God bless!
Amen to all that….I have asked God to heal her…to save her any more pain…may He hold her in His arms…..
Shanna – I pray for you as a mother. Your are amazing just as your sweet Layla is. Your family is strength, courage and hope…that is what I have received from Layla’s story. I have cried so many times thinking of you and Layla and your family. I pray for strength for your family especially for Layla’s sisters during this difficult time. Layla is an angel and has touch so many hearts including mine. I love the pictures and I am going to wake my daughter up that I just put to sleep and give a hug. Thank you!
My heart is broken now looking at this sweet angel. Her smile is amazing and her eyes are so innocent. I’ve had ya’ll on my mind since I found your blog a few days ago. I know God put us together for a reason. Little Layla has touched our hearts like you can’t imagine. Our little 3 y/o has cried for her and he has no clue who she is. When he saw the pic line and the bandages he said ouch.
Please know we are praying for you all. That you will find peace, comfort and strength to go down this sucky road. God loves Layla and I know she knows that now. She has her own angel that is with her and will be with her until she meets Jesus in heaven.
God bless Layla, her sisters, mom and dad.
The Riddle Family
S. Carolina
thank you for making me realize the importance of the little things that i seem to forget when it comes to children, especially toddlers… God Bless you and your family, keep your strength up. Layla is a blessing from God himself. take care and God bless you all…
Shanna,
Im so………speechless. I have followed Laylas journey since she was diagnosed. I was informed my a mutual friend of ours and have not missed a day. I was pregnant when she found out, and now I am a mother to a 7 month old baby girl. I struggle with pain for you and heartache. I dont feel that it is fair for any of this to happen to you and anyone dear child. Layla has forever changed me as have you. You have amazed me with your strength and courage of the unknown. I adore you and your family. I pray for the girls to have help in understanding as well. It breaks my heart to think of them and not understanding what is happening with their precious dear sister. I give great thanks to you also for taking the time to share Laylas story with everyone that care so deeply about her. We all LOVE you and your family! I pray night and day and will continue to do so forever! With TONS of love and hugs!
Christa
Dear Shanna,
I am praying for sweet Layla and for all of you throughout my day. Thank you for sharing this reminder to treasure even the smallest of moments with our loved ones.
Kylene
San Diego
I am speechless and have no idea where to start. I will tell you that I along with others have prayed and prayed for Layla Grace and your whole family. I have been sad since January when you wrote “TEARS” I have prayed harder and with more faith. ALSO, I have said Thank you Lord for my daughter and I have realized the importance of health and being grateful for what we have. You, Shanna have opened my eyes to that. I will continue to pray for you through out all this. I know that you have heard over and over again that this is all part of God’s divine plan, and I believe it is. I sometimes say Why does Layla Grace have to go through this, but soon turn it over to God’s will. I know we shouldn’t question it. I love Layla Grace and never even met her. But I love her and pray for her and will always pray. May God’s presence continue to reign in your household.
Praying for Layla’s comfort and peace to surround your family! Still praying for a miracle from Mississippi !!
Oh Shanna…I have no words… Other than thank you. Thank you for sharing Layla Grace with us. Thank you for showing us moms how strong we can be. Thank you for reminding us how precious each day with our children is. I cannot imagine my house without my three and my heart aches for you and yours without your beautiful Layla Grace. It is all so unspeakably sad.
The pictures of her, and her smile, will stay with me. And I will think of her every time I want just another 5 minutes to empty the dishwasher. I will remember, and I will grab my child and hold on extra-tight.
Your family is in my thoughts..
Cheryl (garboo from MommiesWithStyle)
Shanna you are truly a couragious and strong woman. Your post and everything you are going through helps me realize that I need to cherish every minute my girls are here on earth with me. I cry everyday I read your tweets or your blog.
I continue to pray for Layla to be comfortable, and that you get more precious moments with her. There are just no words to describe how much your situation has changed me.
My oldest daughter is 8 going on 9, Layla has captured her heart as well.
You are truly an amazing woman. Thank you for sharing your precious angel with us. Thank you for making me realize how sweet those moments are that I know I myself am guilty of taking for granted. Layla is a fighter and your life story has really touched me in a way that I cannot describe. I am praying for Layla and your other daughters. I am sure this is very confusing for them. To them, these things are not meant to happen to our precious children. God bless your family-especially your beautiful fighter Layla.
~Melissa, Houston, Tx
Praying for Layla’s comfort, praying for her big sisters, praying for you, her parents.
Peace of our Lord be with you,
Suzanne
I am so sadenned by all of this. I know about wanting time to get things done and have some quite but I completly understand where you are coming from. I have 2 little girls and my youngest is Laylas age. I have no idea what you are going thru but I so wish you all the strenght to go on with life and just know that you were blessed to have had her in your life. You know god only lets us borrow the children and I guess he has a aching heart and needs her to be back home with him. Just remember that you will be with her one day and she will be 100% healthy at that time. What you are going thru truly breaks my heart but you seem like a very strong woman and I give you a lot of credit for that. Keep being strong and we will all continue to pray for your family, you and especially little Layla.
Shanna,
It was through this blog that I found Layla during my search on Neuroblastoma. I am so sad for you and your family, I cannot even imagine what you are going through right now. I was never religious before all of this, I would have just considered myself spiritual. I find myself now praying and asking for Layla to have peace and comfort. Reading your regrets makes me realize just truly how lucky I am to have my two boys. I find myself looking forward to early bedtimes and naps just to get a few minutes of peace and quiet. Never again will I wish for that, you have truly changed my ways of parenting. Your strength is incredible, your values are strong and I just wish we could all be like you in times of pain and hurt. Layla is so stunning and I wish I could take all of her pain and sickness away. May you find peace and comfort and know how truly loved you are by 100′s of people whom have never met you.
Rae
Arizona
Shanna, I only know you as an aquaintance. Our daughters were in kindergarten and 1st grade together at Lowery. Since you have moved we have seen you guys out a few times and Doug has talked to Ryan when he has seen him out. Please know that your strength and courage and sweet Layla have touched and inspired so many people. I so appreciate your sharing the most horrible thing any parent can face and make me realize how much I need to treasure the time I have with my children.
That must be the most moving blog I have ever read.I pray Layla passes very peacefully to God and he gives the family all the strength they need. So many tears are being shed for this beautiful little angel.
Shanna, sweet Layla and family,
My heart is literally breaking for all of you..Every night Bryson and I pray for Layla the sweet little girl in the red wagon that had the tiniest cutest voice. As a mother of a cancer child myself I am strong but your strength truly amazes me, I am not sure how you do it but you do it and I am grateful for have meeting you, Layla and your husband although I wish that it was under much different circumstances.
I pray that comfort comes to Layla in such time, I pray that your 2 other daughters will come to understand that Layla will be at peace and I pray that you and your husband find the peace in it in well. Layla will be remembered you certaintly dont have to worry about that, she is truly special. Everytime I see a hat will a big flower on it I will be reminded of that sweet girl..I will remember the saying she had on the side of her red flyer wagon, “Peace, Love and Layla”!!!
Stephanie
Layla’s a doll, and looks as happy in her bubble bath photos as she did when she got her new pup. Precious moments, no doubt.
I hope and pray you have many more.
Your family is never far from my thoughts, and always in my prayers.
~Michelle
I think about you and Layla often. My heart breaks for you and my eyes are filled with tears. I am praying hard for all of you and wish that you all find peace and comfort in each other. Sending prays and love.
She is so beautiful. I am praying for you guys (hugs)
Continuing to keep Layla and the family in my thoughts. I hope for comfort and minimal pain. Love ya’ll! XOXO
Praying for you and your sweet, beautiful Layla! May you feel the love of God around you today and in the days to come.
I’m not sure that I have ever sobbed like I just did. I am so hurting for you, but also so appreciative of your words – reminders to me to rejoice and live every minute of life that I have with my children. None of us have any guarantees in our time on this earth, but thank you so much Shanna for reminding us that each moment is so precious. I am so sorry for your pain, I don’t know you personally, but I have been so touched by Layla’s story and life and I pray that the Lord holds her and keeps her comfortable until she is home with Him. I pray that he holds you and carries you & your family through the coming days, weeks, months and years until you are reunited with your precious baby for all eternity. Much love to you.
Shanna- I cannot imagine the pain you and your family are enduring. My eyes were filled with tears throughout reading this. You and your family will continue to be in our prayers! God bless yall!
I have been following Layla’s story for only a week but am so deeply touched my your strength & courage & faith. She is such a beautiful, sweet angel. For such a tiny little girl God certainly has a big plan for her life. I pray for comfort. I pray for peace. I definitely have a new perspective on all those little moments that I ask for a little peace & quiet when my kids are being rowdy thanks to you and your precious girl. I hope that those waking moments spent with Layla are the sweetest ever. You are in my constant thoughts & prayers.
Although I can’t even begin to imagine the burden that must be weighing on your heart these days, as a parent my heart aches for you. Your words and blogs are so touching, I have been moved to tears many times. Your strength and faith is inspiring. I don’t know how you do it. I am continuing to pray for Layla and your family – for healing, strength, peace, understanding and comfort.
this entry just broke my heart all over the place. the pictures are precious. and i will never again wish for silence or to be left alone. for i never know when they’ll be taken from me.
I never knew that knowing Layla would make me a better person. More patient. More loving with my own children. More appreciative of all the blessings in my life. I didn’t know that knowing her would bring me closer to God, but it has.
Shanna, you are an amazing mother to all of your children, and I only wish I had the opportunity to know you personally. Thank you for sharing your innermost thoughts with us, and please know that people the world over are not only praying for Layla’s comfort and peace but for your acceptance and peace as well. We will be here for you in the difficult days ahead and will continue to hold your family in prayer.
Jennifer
Shanna….as I read your blog I could not stop crying and praying for what you have asked on behalf of Layla as well as her sisters. My heart truly aches for you all and I will continue to pray for your strength and courage through this horrible ordeal!!!
I’m praying for all you! My heart is breaking for all of you!!! Try not to have regrets, you are just human. We do the best we can and every experience is just part of your individual journey. It is so hard to understand why God would take such a precious child so early, but I believe you will learn why when you make it to heaven. God Bless.
Stacy
I am humbled by your words of faith and hope and how you have come to terms with the future. I have cried so many times reading your entries. You have prayers being said in Virginia.
I’m crying so hard I can barely see the keys on my keyboard to type. Shanna, your precious Layla has touched my heart & I’m praying night & day for her. I’m a mom of 3 (12,11 & a 2yr. old daughter Maddie) since reading your blogs I too have wanted to hug my children every second & tell them how much I love them. Life is so precious & we never know just how long our journey here on Earth will last, so you are right….spend every second you can with your babies and make every memory count. I’m praying for you and your family & for Layla’s LIFE SAVING MIRACLE. My heart is breaking for her & for you as a mom having to watch her go through all that she has in her short life. She is an angel on this Earth & I’m so thankful to have followed her story. You will all continue to be in my prayers, God is good and I will be praying for Layla’s comfort, peace, and sense of security as well as a miracle to save her precious life.
All my love,
Kristie
Since finding your blog recently, I have continued to refresh/update your twitter page and this site, constantly looking for the latest news. I can’t stop thinking about you and your beautiful Layla. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I have been praying for you and your family as much as I know how, and thank you for reminding us of the importance of the little moments. You and Layla are such an inspiration. As others have said, I hope you get the chance to cuddle with her soon – I’m so sorry that she’s not feeling well outside of her bed. All the best and we are all thinking of you.
Regards,
Terez in Sugar Land
Thank you for your reminder of cherishing the little things. Praying for your family and especially litlte Layla from Phoenix, Az
Shanna-
I have only been following baby Layla Grace for the past few weeks-Sherry shared her story. Since then, I have shared with everyone I know. My 1 y/o and I pray for y’all nightly. Anytime I see a new Twitter update or a new blog I spread the word. Thank you for sharing everything with us-I don’t know if I could sit down and write as deep as you do while going through one of the worst things a parent could go through.
Love-Heather, Jason, and baby Karch
I read your words and feel embarrassed…because I recognize myself. So many times I’ve wished my daughter would be ready for an early bedtime so I coudl relax. Or wished that she would take a little longer nap so I could finish the laundry and take a long shower.
I’ll think of things differently now.
And wonder why my daughter is playing in the next room while yours is suffering. I’m so sorry. Words can’t express how sorry I am that your little one was chosen for this journey. I can only remind myself that God knows the bigger picture. And he must think so highly of Layla and her strength, courage and message to chose her for the role.
I am praying for total peace and comfort for Layla during this time. And somehow, during all the pain and suffering you are going through, that your family will feel Gods presence.
My heart breaks for you…
Jamie
Once again, you do not know me and I do not know you but I have been in constant prayer for you and your precious family and little girl! All weekend long I was in constant prayer for little Layla!! I can’t remember the last time I earnestly prayed for something like I have this weekend. Through your blog and your story I feel that I have become closer to the Lord and more aware of every precious moment I have with my little 5 month old boy! I am still praying constantly!!!!
I want you to know that I have been praying for Layla for about a month now and have been so moved and touched by her beauty and sweetness — and by your strength and faith.
May God be with you and comfort you all during this time.
What a beautiful little girl Layla is I cried as I read this latest post… Layla and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers constantly. I am praying for peace , strength ad healing… God is all powerful… I pray He holds Layla and your family close during this difficult time… Wish there was something I could do. But I am praying… Big (hug) an so much love.
Thanks for always sharing pictures of your beautiful daughter. I continue to pray for her comfort, peace and for your entire family. You are so strong, Shanna. When I read your posts, I am amazed at what a kind, nurturing and humbled person you are. God has given you great strength, and may he continue to bless you! I will continue praying for your sweet daughter.
Thank you, Shanna, for sharing Layla’s journey with us. My heart breaks for you and your family. My 4 year old daughter and I pray for Layla and your family every night and I send up prayers, and tears, throughout the entire day. You and Layla are an inspiration and when Layla returns home to her Heavenly Father, she will hear “well done, good and faithful servant”! By sharing your story, you have touched hearts and changed lives, mine included. In 2 short years, Layla has impacted more lives than I could ever hope to in my lifetime. I’ve never met you, Layla or your family, but I am one of the thousands who have been blessed by the opportunity to lift your family up in prayer. I see the beauty, joy, strength and peace of God in her eyes through the pictures you’ve shared with us and I thank you, Shanna, for the honor of “meeting” Layla Grace. In Christ’s Love, Lyn (Pflugerville, TX)
This breaks my heart, I can’t imagine your pain right now. I have 14mo old twin boys, after reading this I may never complain again. I will pray for you and your family as well as this sweet girl. God is with you, and will hold you through this all. You will find comfort in Him, I am so sorry you are going through this!
Ryan & Shanna,
How beautiful Layla is! The first bubble bath picture is gorgeous.
We pray constantly for you guys, begging the Lord for comfort for Layla, peace for you guys, for Jenna and Claire, and for these days to have some joy for your family as you love on your sweet girl.
We are heartbroken and long for you to not have to walk this path, and at the same time so proud of the way you are able to express yourself (what a difficult post that must have been to write!). We will continue to pray.
Kings
Shanna, sent this to your other site but wanted to share it with you here, too. I have a daughter just older than your Layla Grace. She will be two in March and everytime I look at her lately I think of you all. Thank you for the reminder of how I should treasure each squirmy diaper change and that 45-minute dishwasher un-load. I can’t imagine how strong you are. Even stronger than your blog portrays, of that I am sure. I had two sick children last week and it seemed so hard. Shame on me for not remembering those who are truly suffering. Know that your fellow believer is bearing your burden and sharing in the suffering of your sadness. May he hold you and Layla in the palm of His infinite hand….
Dear Shanna and Ryan,
My heart is breaking with sadness for your family right now. You don’t know me but I started following your blog only a few weeks ago. My friend forwarded me your site and asked me to pray for your little angel. I know you have more pressing things to be concerning yourself with but just wanted to share a quick something that came to me. I did not know about the vigil until now so here is a little contribution to the cause. Know tears stream down my face as I type and your fellow believer is feeling your sadness. Stay strong. You are in my prayers, bold ones. I can’t put into words how brave I find you to be. The kingdom of God is greater and will surely grow in number because of the life of your sweet daughter and the faithfulness of your family.
Love, Sara Chan
The Woodlands
Layla Grace, Layla Grace, with your sweet sweet smile and your angel face
You have moved many while running your race, darling Layla Grace
Though you are young and your years be few
God’s doing wonderous things through you
In present times we don’t understand
It can be hard to see His hand
But we know it’s part of a greater plan
We believe this to be true
For those on the outside looking in
We see a giant girlish grin
It’s hard to fathom endurance so great
And the fiesty fight of this featherweight
In the midst of suffering and enormous pain
Your parent’s steadfast faith remains
What a testament to all who view
The trials you are going through
We pray for a miracle, Lord once more
Pray more fervrently than we’ve ever prayed before
Have mercy on your witness small
Bring healing, peace, and rest above all
Lord, you alone know what’s to come
Bring peace and healing to everyone
To all of whom this girl did hear
Whether distanced far or nestled near
You’ve blessed us with a heavenly light
Her courage shining bold and bright
Bring her family peace tonight
Steady their ship and steer
And if you call this wee one home
No longer on this earth to roam
If her moments left are fleeting, brief
Comfort us admist our grief
Remind us of your perfect will
Hold us firmly, planted still
Let our hearts remain aware
That she is in your loving care
You will hold her tiny hand
And guide her through Your glory land
No more need for her to cry
As you sing her heaven’s lullabies
And rock her gently in your arms
Untouchable to hurt or harm
What a special treasure made in You
This precious child with eyes bright blue
A shining reflection of your glorious face
Lord, Thank you tonight for Layla Grace.
For each measured moment before family may part
Make sweet cherished memories to keep in their hearts
She’s made this world such a brighter place.
Lord, Thank you tonight for sweet Layla Grace.
Thank you for your blogs – you will have changed many peoples lives with the journey that you and your beloved child have gone through.
I am lost for words.
Layla, Shanna & family,
My eyes are filled with tears as I type this. I am praying for Layla and your entire family. I hope you can all feel everyones prayers lifting you up! Layla is a beautiful baby! We will continue to pray!
The Pali’s
WOW! I am speechlees and heartbroken by this blog. My thoughts and prayers go out to baby Layla and your ENTIRE family. May god bless all of you. I know we have never met, but my friend Lacy Ricketson shared this blog with me and I have kept up with it ever since. You are one mighty strong woman. You all are in my thoughts and prayers.
My name is Sally and I don’t even know your family. I was forwarded Layla’s blog URL along with a prayer request email and I have been keeping tabs ever since. Today I felt compelled to comment and tell you how amazed I am with your strength and courage — and how much my heart breaks for you and for Layla and for all those that love her. Also, I want to thank you for your generous message, as I also have a baby girl and I take too many moments for granted. I am praying for continued strength, peace, and courage for you. God bless your wonderful family.
You and your daughter are precious in the sight of the Lord. Let him bring you strength and comfort. May you know how many lives you have touched with this story and that today, mothers everywhere are taken aback with the small stuff we sweat with our children 0 to 18 everyday.
May you and precious Layla have peace and comfort and your whole family know the world is praying for all fo you and our heart is breaking with yours.
Lisa TX
What a beautiful, amazing entry, Shanna. I am continually amazed at your ability to keep up with all of us as you walk through this storm. As I have mentioned several times before, our family is praying fervently for all of you. Until today, I have prayed for the will of God, and for that will to be delivered with comfort, understanding, and peace. However, after reading your entry, I drove to carpool sobbing and begging God “not to do this to the Marsh’s”. I yelled at Him to stop. Then, took a breath and realized that by doing that I was not supporting you, but letting go of all faith that I have always had. After getting it together, I asked for His forgiveness and focused my prayers on your comfort, peace, and understanding.
One of our Sunday School lessons a few years ago was on Grace and Mercy. Our teacher explained it like this….Grace is God giving you what you don’t deserve. Layla is God’s grace given to everyone who knows her or knows of her, near and far. No one deserves her, no one deserves to be able to walk through this journey with you and grow stronger because of your trials, but God has given all of us both of those things.
So, after I threw my fit to God, I thanked Him for his Grace…His Layla Grace.
We are 5 states away, and the Mississippi River stands directly in between us, but we are together, as He holds us all in the palms of His nail scarred hands.
Love from GA
Stephanie
I can’t even begin to imagine what you’re going through. I couldn’t stop crying… I couldn’t imagine not having Ozzalyn under my feet and feel guilty for ever wishing she would just leave me alone for 5 minutes. I hope you don’t mind but I linked this entry on my blog. The website I listed is my blog. God bless you.
Shanna:
I am not sure if this was already said, but I havent told you… thank you so much for sharing this part of your life with us…It must be so gut wrenching coming to terms with what is happening with your baby girl, and also having to be a mommy to two other sweet girls.. your strength is admirable beyond words… You are more woman than I could ever hope to be! You are not alone on this journey.. you have people all over Houston, all over Texas, and all over the country praying for your familys peace… Thank you for sharing her life journey with us, and perhaps giving other parents the warning signs and symptoms of this horrible sickness.. Cancer does suck!!! I am broken inside thinking about what you all must be going through…You guys are constantly on my mind.. and I hope one day we can cross paths ( which wouldnt be along shot , I live in the Champions area..;0) ) I would love to just give you a big hug..
I wish Laylas journey could have been different, the one I prayed for these past two months….. But God has a perfect plan for everyone…. Its accepting her fate in good faith that is the hardest part.. I know Layla can feel you and your husbands love for her, even though you arent with her all the time as you would like to be..A mothers love can be felt through the worst of conditions..
Lots of love from my family to yours…
She is absolutly beautiful and my prayers are with you and your family. I pray that Layla is not in pain and that she is peaceful. May you find comfort in knowing people all across the country are loving you and your family. ALl my thoughts are with you…..
Love from Illinois
I do not think I know you, but found your site from a friend of mine, Glenda Little. I have read your story and I am so sorry for what you are going through. I cannot imagine. I am praying for a miracle to happen. I serve a God of miracles, but also a God who understand more than we can ever and THINK to comprehend.
Peace with you.
Love,
Amber Bain from North Dakota
Heard this song on the radio today and thought of you.
“Held” by Natalie Grant
Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling
Who told us we’d be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
We’re asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it’s unfair
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We’d be held
This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We’d be held
If hope is born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our savior
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We’d be held
Praying that your family feels the strong, reliable arms of our Holy God holding you up through this terrible time.
My heart is breaking. I can’t get her sweet little face out of my head. She is an adorable little girl. Please know that I am praying for her and your family during this last few moments, hours, or days that you have with her. Please remember to always look to God for your strength and refuge because He longs to be that for you. May God watch over you and bring you joy during each moment you spend with her.
I have been constantly praying for Layla and your family. She is such a precious little girl and i can not believe that it is already her time to go. I feel that i am going to miss her even though ive never met her or your family. I can only imagine how horrible this must be for your family. All i can offer are my prayers and my love. Layla will be with the Heavenly Father and all her pain will be gone.
Sending all of my love and prayers
Alexa
You will be in our forever prayers! What a short life lived but not lost. Just like I’ve said before she’s done more in her few years of life many have done their entire. God takes home his prophets for others to see his glory! Strange for us to understand but really is all in his making. He knew Layla before you even concieved her. She will be going home to where she came from. As earthly parents you were given an angel. She has done her job now its time to go back home. Even through all this darkness there will be light and it will shine bright and soon! May God grant you a miracle on this very day. I’m a photographer and will do anything you need free of charge just let me know how I can help. http://Www.sharatietz.com please email me if you need me. Blessings to you!
Wow Shanna, I just cried and cried reading your last blog. I still pray for peace and comfort for you and your family. I AM that mom – the mom who just wishes for a few moments of silence, some “me time,” i do wish that i can unload the dishwasher in 5 minutes instead of the 45 minutes it takes me with the kids “helping!” But you have put a whole new perpective on these special moments. Thank you Shanna. Those 45 minutes are Gods gift to me – to us girls special/lucky/blessed enough to be mothers…thank you Shanna for helping me realize that. I pray and pray that however many moments you have left with Layla are so so special.
Your whole family is in our prayers, I truly appreciate that you keep us updated with what’s going on. The baptism photo is beautiful and I am super proud of you and the family’s strength, and I’m glad the PICC line is in place and Layla is getting her meds on board.
Praying that His will be done with comfort for you…..
Shanna-I am amazed by your strength…I am and will continue to pray for you and your entire family.
I have pulled over in my car to pray…God is so LOUD when it comes to praying for your sweet daughter, I listen to Him loud and clear and stop at the exact moment I am pulled to pray!
In Him,
Melissa
Shanna – I am moved by your courage and strength – and for allowing us all to see Layla’s beauty and struggle. You are amazing. As a mother, I heard your words and took them to heart. We have to understand and really cherish our time with our kids and our families and those we love.
Thank you so very much. God bless you, your family and Layla.
My heart is heavy reading your update. I’m so sorry.
All my love and prayers to Layla and your family.
COLE PRayer Team
Continuing to pray for you and your family. I can only imagine that is God’s strength and grace that gets you through every day … every hour … every moment.
I live in Australia and every morning I open “twitter” and say “please no – not today”. I don’t know you – you don’t know me but every day I find myself thinking of you and your family and what you must be going through. There are no magic words to say, nothing I can do from here BUT I know this God is faithful and He will carry you moment by moment. When our friends lost their little boy (he just didn’t wake up on his 2nd birthday – no diagnosis – no answers) it was only the strength and grace of God that got them through … and continues to get them through.
Will conintue to pray for you xo
You and your family have really touched my heart. I am one of those mothers who wishes for quiet moments without the kids at my feet and saying “Mom” so many times I want to change my name. I know now that I need to cherish those moments because it won’t always be that way. My heart aches for you and I will continue to pray. You are such a strong person with a strong family. I use you as a great example of how to have faith and strength. I will continue to pray for you and your family and especially Layla. Pray that she knows that god loves her and that her sisters can one day understand why god has chosen Layla. I will pray that you and Ryan make it through this with a stronger sense of faith then ever before.
Amen.
I know that many people have fallen in love with LaylaGrace and I’m one. Her spirit and heart have touched mine. My love and prayers for all of you, as each need is different.
My heart goes out to you and your family. I am sitting here typing this in tears. I have learned so much from you about being a more loving mother. May peace be with you and your family. May God give Layla, you and your family all the comfort and peace needed to get you all through this time.
With love and prayers,
~Jessa
Dear Layla’s family,
I have followed your story in the last few days…WOW. Your family has the faith of a million. It is astonishing how you can still have faith in our Lord. God has a plan for you and Layla. This sweet baby girl has touched my heart and soul. I have prayed for your family and for peace for you.
Lord please wrap your arms around Layla and her family. Please give them peace and comfort in this time. They need you Lord. We trust you and your love. Help her sister’s understand your love and Layla’s love. We ask these things in your name. Amen
I continue to pary for you and your family.
Thank you for your powerful words. You have truly blessed me with your encouraging perspective. Praying for you and your family.
The post for today is so beautiful. When I was a young mother I needed time to get things done. I thought I had to keep everything done, everyone happy, feed, clean and healthy. Along with working a full time job. As I’ve gotten older I realize that all that stuff can wait and our children are the most important blessing in our life. I love the pictures of your precious baby girl ~ she is just beautiful. My thoughts and prayers are with you as your journey continues.
God is holding her as she sleeps. That is why she wants to be alone because He is with her until she is with Him in heaven in his awaiting arms.It is not dark when she sleeps as it is His warm arms that cradle her.Layla is not afraid.
I have just recently become familiar with Layla and her condition. My heart goes out to you and your family. I have a 2 year old little girl and 8 month old little boy. I love my children more than anything, but I get over whelmed on many days. I just want to thank you for your strength and perspective. You have taught me to not take life for granted. To live each day with my children to the fullest. I was looking at Layla’s beautiful pictures when my little girl sat on my lap and asked me who she was. I told her, her name is Layla and she is sick and that our Heavenly Father is watching over her. She held up her water bottle and said…”Layla can have this….it will make her feel better.” I just wanted to let you know that we are thinking and praying about Layla, you, and your family. We have a love for your family even though we have never met. I couldn’t even imagine the pain your heart must be feeling. One day though, you will be able to hold that precious little baby girl of yours for as long as you want. You will be with her again and her little body of hers will be healed and you can play and hug and be together. We love you.
Our Prayer Oh God, Let Us Become Centered In This Defining Moment.
Still The Voices in Our Heads, Quiet The Fierce Beating of our Hearts, and Open A Space Within To Let You Enter.
As She Takes A Deep Breath, Allow Her To Draw Our Ears Closely To Her Soul, and Hear Your Gentle Voice Calling Out Because the God I Know Will Open Doors Neither Man Nor Woman Can Shut; We Must Oh Lord
Keep Praying, Believing, and Hoping for the Best. Please Make the Crooked Straight and the Rough Places Smooth And We Thank You
and Ask For Your Never-Ending Love of Comfort; In our Precious Lord Jesus Name, Amen for our Dear Child.
A Moment That We Survive and Have Strength Only Through the Grace of God.
While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal. 2 Corinthians 4:18
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Thank you for sharing your story, for sharing Layla with us. I came across your website a couple of weeks ago and your latest post touched my heart. When I finished reading it all I could do was pick up my 9 month old son, hold him tight, and tell him how much I love him as tears streamed down my face. There are so many times I have “needed more time to get things done” and wished he would have napped a little longer or not been so busy. I will not take any moments with him for granted. I will pray for peace and comfort for Layla and you all. God bless you and your family.
Tiffany
I am so sad for all that you guys are going through. My heart breaks for you! May God wrap you all in his arms and comfort you. Know that Layla will live on in all of us even ones who she has never met. You have both touched so many of us. Thanks for the reminder to take nothing for granted in life.
you are a remarkable woman and mother. we can all learn alot from you. god bless you and your baby girl. My heart is with you.
Your story touched my heart. I have been praying for Layla Grace and your family since my sweet friend Jenn told me about this. I pray for her comfort and your peace. Be strong in the Lord and be of good courage.
I am so sorry. Breaks my heart. What a beautiful girl.
Shanna,
You are an amazing woman. I was connected to your site by a friend when your journey started and I have learned so much about strength, grace, love, faith, hope, and courage through your blog.
Layla Grace is a precious little girl and God picked just the right woman to be her mom. You have taught me today to take nothing for granted and to be the best mom I can at all times.
I pray for you and your family and that Layla will stay calm and without pain throughout this horrible ordeal.
Shanna- I am praying for you each and everyday and even more I pray for Layla. I pray that God keeps her comfortable and that shes not scared or in pain. I pray and I pray because it’s all that I can do. I cannot imagine everything your sweet angel has been through but know that she has had the perfect mommy to love and care for her. No one could have done it better than you. I will continue to pray for Layla and your family. ((HUGS))
Shanna,
GOD bless you and your family!
I am a friend if Sarah Tuckers and have followed for awhile. Thank you for reminding me of why we have children….
Children will never remember there were dishes in the sink or laundry to be done. What they do remember is how much we are there do them and all the great memories! Those were the rules I set for myself when I had my first child. And when my second child was born (2 years ago this May) I dropped the ball on that. I was always stressing about the house and frustrated I couldn’t get anything done- to this day I’m still bad about it. After reading your blog this afternoon I have made a promise to myself and my children… Dishes can wait and laundry is NEVER done. I will again spend as much time as possible with my children, enjoy them, teach them, and love them. If for nothing else your precious daughter has made MANY parents, I’m sure, be better at the task our jesus has so graciously gifted us with. Many prayer and thoughts from my family to yours!
Love Rebecca Striesfeld
your daughter is beautiful, as are your words about her, full of love.
i have held my child – as a newborn – as he left this world. it was the saddest thing i have ever done and the greatest privilege i have ever known.
and it was beautiful, in its own way.absolutely. just so you know.
you and Layla will be on my heart.
I can hear God in your writings, he’s there with you, your family and with your beautiful little girl Layla. I don’t know if I could ever be as brave. She’s touching many hearts, and she will be remembered.
God Bless Layla and God Bless You.
Thank you for taking the time to share these words. You inspire me on a daily basis. Your strength, conviction, and love are incredible. I looked at my daughter, who is 18 months old, and thought today of each and every word you wrote. You are in our thoughts and prayers and I wish nothing but peace for your beautiful family.
Shanna- I first want to say I can’t even begin to comprehend how hard this is for you and your family. As a mother of an almost 1 year old boy, I just don’t know how you do it. But, as horrible of an ordeal this is for your family, all I can say is WOW! How awesome is it that God has hand picked your precious little girl to reach out to so many people. How awesome is it that he thought she would be the best person to teach so many lessons- mainly to cherish EVERY SINGLE MOMENT, no matter how good or bad it may seem (my son just vomited all over me….and instead of getting frustrated by it, I was thankful that he was here and able to do that!). Did you think, as you held Layla as a newborn, that she would touch so many people? Here I am, a girl from Georgia, who came across your blog on an acquiantance’s Facebook page. In a few short days of reading your blog, I have given my son more hugs, talked to God more, became more thankful for everything I have. Also, another lesson that God is using your daughther and family to teach- put all your faith into God. I am amazed at how strong your faith is in Him, even though it doesn’t seem fair that this little body is fighting so hard against this evil disease. It is amazing.
Know that in those times that Layla doesn’t want to be held, although it hurts your heart, she is being held by God. I am lifting you and your family up in prayer. Imagine the homecoming Layla is going to receive when her Father calls her home. Imagine how great it will be when you get to see her again. This will be goodbye for now, but not forever.
Oh Shanna!!!!! I too now am going to embrace a little help from my 2 year old who wants to play under my feet during chore time. I keep hugging and kissing my little Isabella (same age as Layla). I am praying along with you for the Lord to keep Layla comfortable, and for him to help her not be scared! Thank you for the twitter updates too. I have you book marked and I check for your updates almost hourly. Even my husband came home from work last night and asked how Layla was. We are constantly thinking about you…..even though we have never met Layla we are SO attached to her. I’ve posted for prayers for Layla EVERYWHERE I possibly can.
Love,
Kristie
You are an amazing family. I do believe the poem that you posted; God chose you very carefully to cherish the short life of this incredible little girl. I truly believe he made the right choice. Her life has so much meaning, even in just 2 years. As you’ve said so many times in your posts; her battle has affected so many people, myself included. I will pray for your family to have immeasurable strength.
Austin, TX
I just want you to know that my family prays for Layla Grace every day. My 3 yo asks about her and asks God to make her healthy again every night. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
words????? Just know that I am praying for you and your family.
Shanna, you don’t know me, but I am married to Sarah Moser’s cousin, Chris. I have had the honor of praying for your family the last few months as I followed you on facebook. But I have to confess that the last week my thoughts have never strayed far from you and sweet Layla. I check often on your website to see how… this precious angel is doing and find myself crying out to God on your behalf. You are such an inspiration but I am sure right now that is the last thing you want to be. I know you long for the routine that was not so long ago a part of your life. So I am praying that Jesus will BE everything that you and your family need. And although I am certain that His precious arms are holding Layla every second of every day, I am praying that you never feel fear that He isn’t with her. That you will have such a calm assuredness that He is near your sweet angel and near to you.
Layla Grace – you are such a fighter sweet baby girl. Jesus loves you and we have grown to love …See More
Shanna,
I read another blog post with tears streaming down my face, just crying my eyes out with heartbreak. The sadness is like a palpable weight on my chest. The difficulty and loss you and Ryan face now is just unimaginable to any parent, and yet you are able to articulate your thoughts and feelings in such an expressive and personal manner. You truly have such a gift to share your faith and family experiences with us!
I cannot comprehend your sadness and fear of losing Layla as well as the anger you must feel remembering every terrifying and horrific misery she has endured since May 2009. Layla has fought such a courageous and joyful, spirited battle since the beginning. Reading your blog posts has truly become a daily part of my life, and I really feel I “know” sweet Layla and your family. I speak to my little girls about Layla daily.
I know your family will surround little Layla with love, comfort and peace as her journey ends. I pray that she will be pain-free and allow you two to snuggle her in your bed, caress her soft skin and shower her with kisses. I pray that she will not feel pain or fear, but know overwhelming love– from her family, from her prayer warriors, and from His presence.
Your family is constantly in my prayers!!!
Noooo – I’ve been following you guys on Twitter (@rockiesfan01) and it is so heartbreaking… I can’t imagine. I am praying for you – God holds you in His hand and He will never let you go!! I agree with that person who commented with the lyrics to “Held” by Natalie Grant… exactly.
Prayers and Hugs!!
Please Dear God, save this child. Show us a miracle tonight for Layla’s family! Please Lord, I pray with my whole heart and soul for this baby! All things we do in your name! Lord grant this child peace, comfort and show her family the miracles you perform! We love you dear Lord! Amen
Ryan, Shanna, Layla Grace, Claire, Jenna ~
There are no words to express just how my family is hurting with you. Layla Grace is truly an angel that has touched and changed so many lives. She has taught us so much. The first thing I do when I wake in the morning is check on Layla and follow her during the day. Thank you so much for sharing Layla with us. I love her and have never met her. What you are going through is beyong our own understanding. keep looking to God for strength and understanding. Know that through all this pain, there is a reason. I pray someday we will understand the “WHY ?!?!”. You are right Shanna, something has to be done, this monster is taking too many of our babies too soon. My grandson Gabrial, the same age as Layla, is battling the same cancer and is going through the same treatment at Childrens Hospital here in Dallas. It is more than heartbreaking to watch what these babies have to go through. I heard this song and cried because I thought of Layla……
Little boy six years old
A little too used to being alone
Another new mom and dad, another school
Another house, that’ll never be home
When people ask him how he likes this place
He looks up and says with a smile upon his face
This is my temporary home
It’s not where I belong
Windows and rooms
That I’m passing through
This is just a stop
On the way to where I’m going
I’m not afraid because I know
This is my temporary home
Young mom on her own
She needs a little help, got nowhere to go
She’s looking for a job, looking for a way out
‘Cause a halfway house will never be a home
At night she whispers to her baby girl
Someday we’ll find our place here in this world
This is our temporary home
It’s not where we belong
Windows and rooms
That we’re passing through
This is just a stop
On the way to where we’re going
I’m not afraid because I know
This is our temporary home
Old man, hospital bed
The room is filled with people he loves
And he whispers
“Don’t cry for me I’ll see you all some day”
He looks up and says “I can see God’s face”
This is my temporary home
It’s not where I belong
Windows and rooms
That I’m passing through
This was just a stop
On the way to where I’m going
I’m not afraid because I know
This was my temporary home
This is our temporary home
We share your hurt, tears, and pain.
Little Laylagrace, How do we thank you for all the you have taught us?
Such a tiny little package with such a huge impacting message that has brought so many of us to our knees…..You will be so missed.
Shanna,
Layla is looking so beautiful! This post brings me to tears. You’re family is always in my prayers. I still pray for a miracle. Your family will ALWAYS be in my heart!
Love always,
Whitney from Chili’s-Tomball
Shanna,
You are an amazing woman. Have no regrets, your little girl knows how much she is loved and in the end that is all that matters. Be at peace and know that your angel is in God’s hands forever. Thank you for sharing your story. You, your family, and beautiful little Layla have made this world a much better place. Your story has touched thousands.
God bless you and your family. I am forever grateful to you for showing us the true, raw meaning of love and life.
God has bigger plans for your beautiful angel.
It’s amazing how such a tiny little thing can take such a huge part of my heart. I don’t know Layla, and until a few days ago, I didn’t know her story. I am sooo grateful to have found this site and learned of her AMAZING strength and courage. Layla, you have touched so many hearts and you forever have a spot in mine. I pray all the time for you that you are comfy and peaceful. You have made such an impact on my life and made me stop and appreciate the little things in life. At such a young age you are an amazing inspiration and proof that there are angels. Know that I am thinking and praying for you! Stay strong sweet baby! <3
I am glad you are sharing your story. You have really made me think about what is important. I get frustrated daily feeling like I cannot get anything done around here…then I read this and it really puts everything in perspective. Tonight I’m going to relax and just spend time with the kids and not get caught up in dishes and laundry. My heart goes out to you and your family. Prayers and hugs.
I send you heart felt hugs and prayers… You are an amazing mother and God has given you his strength and is wrapping his arms around that precious child.. I pray for her peace and love… and for you and your family.. thank you for sharing Layla Grace.. we have all been truely blessed.
With love…
No regrets–just happy memories! Prayers for you and your sweet baby girl!
Know that there are many people praying for your sweet girl. I’m praying that God will continue to hold her in His hands and give her peace.
My heart sobs for you and your family. I have prayed for you and thought of you constantly since I found your website. Burying my son was the hardest thing I have ever done and hope to ever do. I don’t know where we find the strength but somehow we do and go on. I could say a lot of things but while I have never experienced what you are, I know there are just no words. It is awful, shocks the heart and the soul and takes you to a place you didn’t know existed. It is just so unfair.
My heart broke reading this. I literally started crying. I’ve got a healthy four year old and I am so grateful. Reading your blog reminds me of so many things we as moms take for granted. I cannot even begin to imagine dealing with what you are.
I lost my mom to cancer 3 years ago and since then I have been fighting for a cure by helping to fundraise. I just ran the Austin Half Marathon for the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society. Sweet Layla is the reason I do it. Your family and that sweet angel are in my prayers. My heart hurts for you and I will be thinking of you all.
I do not know you or your family, but my heart is breaking for you right now. You are facing unimaginable heartache. Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” We know that even though God’s plan may devastate us and we can’t comprehend why this is happening, He is in control and will certainly take care of little Layla. Matthew 5:4 says, “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” I am praying tonight that God will wrap His arms around you in comfort, that He will spare Layla from any more pain and suffering, and that through this horrible tragedy, His name will be glorified. May God bless you, your family, and especially Layla.
You don’t know me, but Layla’s story has touched me so much. We lost our cousin, our little hero, Madison age 11 to Medulablastoma in October. She fought a courageous fight for 5 and a half years. She, like Layla, will always be an inspiration to all those who have had the privilege to know them. I will be praying for your family.
Layla and your family have been in my prayers constantly over the last few weeks and you will remain there. You have also reminded me to not take any moment for granted and to be thankful everyday for my healthy children. May God be will you as you continue this journey.
Shanna-
You don’t know me as I am sure that you don’t know many of the people that follow your sweet sweet precious Layla. I don’t know her and have never met her, yet I find myself thinking of her daily. I always go back to a post that you put up a while back, Layla Grace, the PERFECT name for a PERFECT little girl.
Laura
Austin, TX
I’m not a very religious person, but watching the faith you have in God to protect Layla is beautiful. I’ve been praying for Layla, you, and your family. Always keep your faith in God, it is such a blessing and beautiful thing.
My heartfelt thoughts and prayers go to you and your family. I am awed by the strength it takes for each of you to face this journey. I admire your faith and hope. I appreciate your ability to articulate what you are experiencing so that others can learn from you and send our wishes and prayers from teh corners of the earth.
I know that the joy that shines forth from everyone in your family and especially sweet Layla have positively impacted everyone who learns of your story. Thank you for sharing and I wish Layla and your children and you the sweetest of dreams and the peacefulness of spirit that you all deserve.
PS: Her spirit shines through the photographs, her soul seems so wise and innocent at the same time.
From one mom to another….May God bless you and your family…I am praying for all of you and sweet Layla every day. I don’t even know her, but she has touched my heart so much. Just seeing her pictures and reading about her…she is such an inspiration as are all of you. I think about the the things most of us worry about or stress about everyday…silly things, really…then I look at her picture and she is smiling through everything. That is so powerful and such a lesson for all of us. I can’t imagine how many people she has touched in this way and in other ways…God is truly working through her. I can only imagine the happiness and joy she has brought to those who are blessed to know and love her. Thank you so much for sharing her with me through words and pictures…I shed tears every day as I check on her. Please know that so many people care and are praying for you all! I will light a candle for her at church tomorrow night…may God give her peace and comfort.
I’ve only come across your story today and honestly I just don’t have any words to express what I’m feeling for you, your family and your beautiful Layla Grace. I just wanted to tell you (without eloquence but with an incredibly heavy heart) that you will all be in my thoughts. I hope sweet sweet Layla is comfortable and that somehow you all find peace.
praying for you…..
sending sympathy and tears…..
she is so beautiful
praying for you.
just a stranger… yet brother in Christ… breaks my heart, but I cry for you… you will be in our prayers
I read today your beautifully raw but lovingly sweet blog entry today and cried with you. I cannot imagine what you are going through. Thank you for reminding me what is important in life when I think I just need a moment for me. We take life and its gifts for granted too often. I often hold my baby while she sleeps in the afternoon and so many have given me a hard time about it but I cherish every moment. I lsot 3 prior to my sweet baby and I guess you jst see things differently sometimes when you experience loss. I held her a little tighter today.
Layla Grace is so blessed to have you as her mother and her precious life has touched so many and she will not be forgotten. I don’t know what to say to bring you comfort other than I will pray for you all and I know that my God is big enough to handle all that you need to feel and express throughout this process. He will never leave you nor forsake you. Hold tight to His promises. Praying for peace and comfort for you and sweet Layla Grace.
i cry for layla grace, for you, and for your family~i will continue to keep all of you in my prayers~may god bless and keep you, in the name of the father, the son, and the holy spirit~amen
My heart is deeply touched and saddened. All I know is that God is in control and He must really need her in heaven. May God give her peace and comfort. I will add her and your family to my nightly prayers. God bless
Thank you for sharing your pain and joy. You have given me a new appreciation for the tribulations of my own little ones.
May G*d’s peace be with Layla, you, and your family, no matter what the future brings.
J
Dear Marsh Family,
Enjoy every second with your angel and know that God has bigger plans for her. We pray for your family and sweet Layla. She will forever be in our hearts. You have been such a wonderful family to sweet Layla and have done everything right. Stay strong through this and hold tight to each breath. Layla is a beautiful baby girl who will carry on with ALL of us forever. God bless her and your family.
I will keep your family in my prayers everyday. God bless your family. He will give Layla the comfort and understanding as well as your other two daughters. He will make everything be OK….think of see you later, not goodbye. Thank you for sharing her story and you are such a couragious and strong mother. Layla and her sisters are very lucky to have a mother like you. God will bring Layla peace. God bless.
love, thoughts and prayers are with you, your family, and your sweet little girl.
Absolutly beautiful GIRL…Sweet Layla…praying for your miracle!!
All the way from Utah!!
I was thinking of Layla today (as usual) and this song came to me…
When I get where I’m going
on the far side of the sky.
The first thing that I’m gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly.
I’m gonna land beside a lion,
and run my fingers through his mane.
Or I might find out what it’s like
To ride a drop of rain
(Chorus:)
Yeah when I get where I’m going,
there’ll be only happy tears.
I will shed the sins and struggles,
I have carried all these years.
And I’ll leave my heart wide open,
I will love and have no fear.
Yeah when I get where I’m going,
Don’t cry for me down here.
I’m gonna walk with my grandaddy,
and he’ll match me step for step,
and I’ll tell him how I missed him,
every minute since he left.
Then I’ll hug his neck.
(Chorus)
So much pain and so much darkness,
in this world we stumble through.
All these questions, I can’t answer,
so much work to do.
But when I get where I’m going,
and I see my Maker’s face.
I’ll stand forever in the light,
of His amazing grace.
Yeah when I get where I’m going,
Yeah when I get where I’m going,
there’ll be only happy tears.
Hallelujah!
I will love and have no fear.
When I get where I’m going.
Yeah when I get where I’m going.
I am still and will continue to praying for her miraculous healing!
Nicole
Nicole
Still hoping that there will be a miracle happening here soon! Hang in there Shanna…you are being so strong & we all know you are doing the very best that you can. Peace be with you <3
My heart truly breaks for you and your family. It seems so unfair for your precious baby to be at the end of her journey. I am new to your blog and discovered it through a facebook post. I can’t get Layla off my mind. i will take your words and try to truly enjoy every min with my loved ones. May God bless you and surround you with love and peace.
XOXO
She is so beautiful and your words are so touching. I am so very sorry that she/you/your family are having to go through this unthinkable time. Our thoughts & Prayers are with you. *hugs & Prayers!*
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My heart is breaking so for your family. Am so glad you had her baptized. Lifting up prayers!
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Your daughter is so beautiful. Your story is gut wrenching painful. I cannot imagine what you all are going through. You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday. God Bless.
Praying for a miracle. Your sweet baby girl has touched many lives.
I am up late tonight, thinking about your baby girl. I just cannot thank you enough for sharing her with us. Although I do not know what God’s plan is with all of this, I know one thing is for sure. Layla Grace has personally brought me closer to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I talk to him all day long about Layla, your family, and my own emotional response to all of this. I am hugging my little ones tighter, trying not to sweat the small stuff as much as I used to, and really just trying to enjoy every moment of each day, no matter what it may bring. God bless you all!
I was directed to your blog last Friday (via FB), the day of the prayer Vigil. I can’t begin to tell you how moved I was by your beautiful daughter, Layla. As a mother to two young girls, I CANNOT fathom the idea of a parent losing a child, it’s just heart-wrenching. As I read your blog that day, along with the updates via your friend, I was literally bawling. I find myself coming back to visit your blog, and get updates, several times a day.
There are no words to express my sadness for you and your family. I will continue to pray for Layla…I pray that God will place his healing hands on her, and pray that he will ease her pain. I pray for her sisters, that they find the understanding that we all seek at times like this. I can only imagine how much they must love their little sister, and the loss that they will experience. May the Lord bless you and your husband with strength and understanding, may he comfort you in your time of such great need.
God Bless you and your family Shanna.
Layla is an amazing child and you are an amazing mother, God bless our little Layla and may the Lord be merciful in her final days, God bless you all.
You have a sweet baby girl and I admire your family your strength. I will be praying for you all. The poem a couple of blogs down was really great. I hope you know that God is with you all now and always be.
2am can’t sleep – i have had you all in my mind and consuming my heart since reading of this precious baby girl- I know there are no words that can comfort this numbing time. But I have been praying i don’t have any special words or specific thoughts, I just pray, pray and pray – i know God hears our hearts, everyone of our hearts we can just be and he is there – just to say jesus please come – i just ask him tonite to reach down and hold you – hold you all so tight that you feel him .
i just read your latest entry.
each time my babies would wake during the night to feed i would get so upset… i was so exhausted, sleepy… after allowing myself to feel that, what snapped me out of it was the thought of moms and dads who might of lost a baby or child, who wished their sleep would be interrupted by the cries… i sit here, after reading your latest entry about the quietness, the stillness, and how you want to be “bothered”…. thanks for reminding me how precious each second of the day is, especially when it comes to our children. each second counts because we never know when our time on this earth will come to a close. thanks for sharing your life, layla’s life with us. i continue to pray for you, for a miracle, strength to hold it together for your baby girl. i just soothed my 20month old back to sleep right before visiting your site. at bedtime, she and i prayed for layla.
I am crying for you and your family. Your little girl is so beautiful, what an angel! I loved her photo’s with the new puppy. She reminds me of my daughter Ava.. a blue eyed cherub! She is lucky to have a mother like you, you are doing a wonderful job
God bless Layla xoxo
Praying for sweet Layla & your family.
Keeping all of you close to my heart and in my prayers……many prayers and love for you and your precious Layla and family…..
Shanna–These words from your mother’s heart so touched my own heart. What a beautiful way you have expressed the experience and emotions of your journey right now. Thank you for this reminder to cherish each and every moment–the good and the frustrating as well. I will hold my children and love them in a whole new way after reading your blog.
Thank you for revealing the beauty of your heart as you share it with all of us. God is using you in ways you and I will never understand to accomplish His kingdom work. He chose you to be the mother of this precious little girl through whom He would touch so many lives. My heart aches every time I think of the pain you must be experiencing. Layla has been on my mind and in my prayers so often ever since we first learned about her back in October. I am so thankful God saw fit for our paths to cross. So thankful we can be here for your family through this difficult time. So thankful you have welcomed us into your lives.
Please know your whole family is continually lifted before the throne of our faithful, loving, sovereign God. I pray that Jesus will wrap you up in His everlasting love and comfort you with His peace that passes our human understanding. May He give you strength and hope for the rest of your days.
“For I know the plans I have for you; plans to prosper you, and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
Loving for Jesus,
Julie
What a heart wrenching entry. . .I can’t stop crying. Everything that you said I have felt and thought myself. Since I first started following Layla’s journey with this terrible beast, I find myself trying to have more patience with my daughter who is the same age as Layla. I cannot imagine what you and your precious family are going through.
I am still praying that sweet Layla gets her miracle from God and praying for your family everyday! CHERISH EVERY MOMENT with her no matter what!!!
Saw this verse this morning and thought again of Layla.
Job 5: 9 He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed,
miracles that cannot be counted.
You are in our prayers always and continuously
Prayers for your sweet baby Layla this morning. Tears for you and your family. God be with you.
May the God of peace and comfort surround you and your family. May he hold Layla in the palm of His hand. Praying for you in Oil City, Pennsylvania.
Are the drugs making her so sleepy or is it the cancer? It sounds to me like she is not in great pain. Kind of the like when I was in labor. The drugs helped me sleep right through it. You are such a strong woman. Stronger than I could ever imagine being. God blessed Layla when she gave her you. I always say I have the best Mom in the whole wide world, but I think if there was a prize you would win for sure. “Faith reaches past the darkness and takes the hand of God.”
you are the best mom and should never let “mommy guilt” get ya! i too, along with a million other moms do this all the time in different situations anf feel guilty for different reasons at the end of the day. i feel like all i do is yell at my twins and through layla’s story, i try to make an effort to do better each day. but i am not perfect and just do the best i can taking it minute by minute. your little girl has something truly special and it shines through her so brightly! her mission, i believe, was to bring many closer to God, she is touching THE WORLD, this tiny sweet 2 year old is touching the world, THAT IS AMAZING! and your an amzing mom, don’t EVER think otherwise! love, hugs and prayers- hallie
You and your family are in my prayers…God Bless.
I love Layla’s face and how she is loving her new Hello Kitty! She is just precious. I was able to attend the Prayer Vigil the other night…and I am the one that gave you the blue angel, because it reminded me so much of her gorgeous eyes that just pierce your soul! I, too, have a two year old daughter, named and spelled like Layla. I live in the Houston area. Your story compelled me and I have been praying for Layla for about a year now. I pray for you and your family as well. Thank you for your reminders on what we should be thankful for on an everyday basis. Much love and many blessings to you all!
Shanna, Ryan, Claire & Jenna –
I won’t say that I know what you’re going through, but I feel like I do a small bit. My baby was born with a heart condition that we were unaware of during the entire pregnancy. She had surgery to help repair it, but after 7 days of life she passed away. It has been almost 11 months now and there are still some days where I ask “why?”. Now, as I’ve followed this journey of Layla’s, I find myself asking “why?” again. I don’t understand why these children have to go through so much pain and why we have to be the ones with one less child, but I know that there is a reason. I don’t know yet, but I try to think that I was a chosen one to be a mother of an angel.
Your sweet daughters don’t understand it all (your older one might have a harder time), but remember to stress that Layla will be watching over them and protecting them. We always talk about our daughter that passed to our oldest (only 4) and remind her that she is watching everything we do. It was hard for her to grasp the whole situation, but I feel like she is a stronger individual now than she would have ever been.
I pray that your family is at peace for these next few weeks (hopefully months). I pray that Layla is comforted and pain-free. Know that she will always be watching over you and protecting you. Thanks for sharing your blog. It has reached many people.
With Love,
Elizabeth
your blog is so touching i am on my knees crying and praying for your family please know that so many people have been touched by your story and though no one can even understand what yall have been thru or what you are now facing we are all praying and hoping for miracles …May the Holy Spirit wrap Himself around your family and keep you all safe and at peace
First and foremost … I just would like to extend my heartfelt sympathy to you all … in sharing this most painful story of your beautiful little girl. What a beauty she is. She glows. Secondly, your words are humbling and inspiring. I can’t imagine what you’re going through, but I want you to know, I will be praying for strength, peace, comfort, and hope for each and every one of you. You are such a strong woman … and what an amazing mother! Layla is lucky to have you. Thank you for sharing your words. You have inspired many. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers daily. God Bless each of you. ~Emily
I cannot begin to tell you how much this post moved and humbled me. I found your blog by accident last night as I was trying to unwind from a trying evening with my own daughter, who is 19 months old, by reading a few of my favorite mommy blogs. I read this post first, then went back through your archives to get the full story, and then re-read this post over and over. Your words just cut straight to my heart, because I find myself frustrated sometimes that I cannot get laundry, dishes, whatever, done when I want and how quickly I want, because my daughter is getting into something, asking me for something, begging me to sit and play, wanting to be held…I know that I have taken those moments for granted, but your story has offered a profound reminder of the blessing I have been given and how deeply grateful I am for every minute that I get to spend with my daughter. This morning when she woke up, I held her a little longer, a little tighter and said a prayer for Layla. God bless that sweet child of yours, and may comfort and peace be with her and your entire family.
Melissa in Ohio
Shanna, I so admire your strength in this difficult time. I appreciate your openess and sharing your heart with us. Your message yesterday was so touching and I pray and cry for your famiily daily. I have 6 children but we had twins and one did not survive. He actually died in utero at 28 weeks. I had so many questions for God….and still do, but I do know that one verse of scripture really spoke to me and I wanted to share it with you. Psalm 139: 16 “Your eyes saw my substance being yet unformed. And in Your book they were all written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them.” God had my baby’s days recorded in his book. I wanted the book to be longer but God had a plan. I am trusting God to heal Layla Grace and that her book be sooo long! Just know that God has sweet Layla’s days written in his book and she is such a blessing to all of us who follow her story. God Bless You.
My heart goes out to you and your family. You will be in our prayers. Brought tears to my reading your story as we just had our first baby girl that is now 2 Months Old. We have other children in our home that we foster and have adopted and I have so many of the moments, “can’t wait till nap” “can’t get anything done” and you have just made me realize cherish every moment all that stuff can wait. But you have done everything right and enjoy the last few days. She has had a wonderful life and is a beautiful little girl. You are touching so many lives. You will be in our prayers, everything is in gods hands, enjoy your time with Layla.
Your recent post “Sleep, Valentines Day and Regrets” really touched our hearts. How often have we failed to recognize that each day we spend with our children (and each other) is a blessing from God. We allow ourselves to get caught-up in the little problems and challenges of daily living; and fail to focus on WHAT REALLY MATTERS. Thank you for sharing the story of your life with Layla. We will continue to pray for God’s will to be done in, and through Layla; and for His strength, peace, and comfort for YOU; and for your family.
Charles & Michelle Thomas / South Main Baptist Church / Pasadena, TX
May God bless you and your family, and continue to give you the strength to continue this journey. I as a mother can’t imagine the pain you and your family are going through knowing some day your little angel will not be here to hug or kiss.
Just wanted to tell you that your post brought me to tears. I am praying for you, Layla, and your entire family. I have 2 girls, 23 months & & months and your post just hit home. The past few weeks I have been getting so frustrated and short with my 23 month old and you have reminded me to put everything in perspective. I am so lucky to have my little ones under my feet and getting into things. Crying, praying and wishing I could do more for you.
*meant to say 23 Months & 7 Months*
Your most recent post; “Sleep, Valentines Day and Regrets” has really touched our hearts. How often have we failed to see God’s blessings in our lives, because we have become “bothered” by the little problems and challenges of everyday living. Thank you for sharing Layla’s life with so many. We will continue to pray for God’s Will to be done in, and through little Layla. We also as for God’s strength, peace and comfort for YOU, as you face the uncertain days ahead.
May God Bless Layla; You; and your family…..
C & M Thomas / South Main Baptist Church / Pasadena, TX.
Hi Shana,
Last night I was just telling my hubby how it touched my heart that Laston is playing with Layla baby toys……
I am praying for you and your family daily. I know that God will give you the strength you need to get through this time of sadness. Because of your story I will never take for granted all the time that I have with my children. I will not worry if the house is messy for awhile or if all the laundry didnt get done that day, I will simply count my blessings and never complain about what I could have got done. Our days on this earth are numbered and I want to be able to give my kids all the time they deserve. You are a true inspiration as is your Layla. May God bless you and yours. Sending love from my family to yours.
I have never met you, but I have been following Layla on Sherry’s facebook for a while. I pray that God will work miracles, that he will offer you a peace that passes all understanding and give you great comfort in His plan. I have been very blessed by reading your blog!
My thoughts and prayers are on little Layla and your family as you go through these troubled waters. My hearts reaches out for you and I am inspired by your strength and love. I pray that God finds all of you comfort, udnerstanding, & peace.
Lacey
Crosby, TX
This story touched my heart and has made me realize how lucky I am to have kids under my feet and a loud house! Your story has changed my life. I am so sorry for what you are going through, your sweet beautiful baby girl and you family are in my thoughts and prayers daily. God bless you all!!!
Shanna, I want to say to you as I read the story of Layla, my heart is so full. I just can’t imagine even being in your situation now. God said in his word that he would never put on us more than we can’t bear. He will give you strength for such time as this. Regardless of what is going on God still loves you. He has chosen Layla because he only pick the best. Trust God Shanna, stay encourage. For sure trouble will someday hit everbodys home one way or another. I can’t tell you why he has allowed this to happen to you, but only he knows. Your baby has touched so many hearts, she is such a beautiful angel and was only loan to you for a while. Dedicate her back to him and tell him Thank you for the time he allowed and loaned her to you. I will always keep you and your husband in my heart and prayers. God bless you my sister.
My head literally spinned as I was reading your entry…I pray that Layla will be free of pain, and have peace. You will have her love forever with you. Please do not have regrets, you are an amazing mother to your beautiful daughters!
I was directed to your blog by a friend’s post on Facebook. My heart is breaking for you and your family … especially sweet little Layla. I will pray for all of you. Thank you for reminding me that those daily “annoyances” we experience as parents are reminders that we are blessed.
p.s. I’m not sure what kind of bed she has (crib, twin?). Might you be able to crawl into HER bed and just be next to her?
My heart is so heavy for your family and this sweet, beautiful little angel. I just cannot imagine the pain you are going through and I pray God heals your heart and answers your prayers. He is such an awesome God! I will continue to follow little Layla’s life, I’m just so touched!
I learned of your family through a small world story and have followed your journey every since. I also lost my brother to cancer when he was 7 – I was 10 and my younger brother was 5. I remember my brother and have lots of memories of him and your daughters will remember their sister and share stories and memories about her the rest of their lives. The strength you carry for you, Layla and your family is indescribable and when the time arrives, please make sure you take care of yourself so that you will continue to be there for them. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family everyday.
You don’t know me, but as I read this, my heart starting aching for you and and your family and started crying. Looking at the picture of Layla…I see a beauiful little girl with this big smile and big blue eyes. I pray that she will be pain free and will pray for you as a mother who will miss out on her growing up. Know that God is watching out for Layla and take as many pictures as you can, touch her, hold her little hand and tell her how much she is loved…which I’m sure you have been doing. God be with you all.
Layla is such a beautiful little girl. I am absolutely praying for her peace and for the peace that all of your family deserves. I hope today is full of sweet smiles and gentle cuddles…
Shanna,
As I sit here at work I am reading the latest post and I can’t stop crying. The words you have said ring true with the day to day life of a mom. I can truly say you have changed my life with those words and I will never look at those things the same again. Being a mom is the greatest gift that God could give to any woman. Every time I ready about your Layla I can’t help of thinking about my Kayla and what I would feel if our roles were reversed I think thats why this gets to me so. She is a beautiful gift from God who has taught so many so much in the small time she has been here. She has taught me to not let a day go by without playing, kissing and hugging my babies and letting them know that I love them more than life itself. Our father is holding her in his hands always.
Even though I have never met your sweet Layla, she has touched my heart so much. Looking at her sweet face and reading your words brings tears to my eyes each time. I heard about her battle only a few weeks ago through a friend and have been thinking about her and praying for her and your family daily. I am realizing that the little things don’t matter and if my baby girl wants to help fold the laundry, I should cherish that time and let her even if the sink is full of dishes and I have a million other things to do. Thank you for sharing your baby girls life with us and please know that I am praying for Layla and your family constantly.
Your baby is an angel sent from God. He lets you hold her for only a moment in time, but she will be with you forever in spirit, to comfort you.
From another family living with this: We pray for peace, for you, and your sweet little girl.
Shanna,
You are a true testament to what it is to be strong and to continue having faith. Reading your blog was definitely a lesson for me, as well as many other moms that have commented. The little tedious things about our little ones that tend to bug us are the ones we need to truly hold onto and not take for granted. Your blog has been imprinted in my soul and has been a lesson to me. I am eternally grateful.
I pray for your continued strength. I pray that your beautiful little Layla Grace feels no pain and discomfort as she begins to take steps toward entering into her eternal life with the Lord. Your family is in my daily thoughts. I find myself checking both Twitter and this website frequently for updates on how her day is going.
Your story will not be one that will be forgotten. Layla Grace has touched more lives than any of you will ever know. May the Grace of God be with you each and everyday and may you find comfort in his unconditional love.
With Love and Respect,
Melissa Roque-Ferreira
Dear Marsh Family,
You don’t know me, I have left a few comments in the past. I am Dana Burnett NIchols mother-in-law. She sent me a message in May to pray for Layla. Since that time I have followed Layal’s progress closely. You have all become very dear to me. I have prayed for you so many times. I have shared Layla’s struggle with many prayer warrior friends who have prayed for her. My Women’s Bible Study group asks me every week how she is doing and I usually end up crying. It’s hard to understand how someone I have never met has become so precious to me. Every time I hold and love my 4 year old granddaughter, I think that it could just as easily be her waging this battle and thank God for her.
Shanna and Ryan, I so admire how strong you both are and know that you really aren’t in yourselves, but that it is God holding you in his arms and keeping you strong. I thank you for pouring out your hearts to us in your tweeets and blogs. I think they are why I feel I know you.
I can imagine how it breaks your heart to want to just hold Layla in your arms now while you still have her and not be able to because she is more comfortable in her bed. It says so much that you are willing to let her be where she is comfortable. Like you said, I think that when she is in her bed, it must be that she is in the arms of Jesus and he is giving her comfort. I heard a song on the radio the other day about Jesus having a rocking chair. I thought of Layla and you and wept. My tears do you know good, but I know my prayers are all that will help. I know this is really long, but I hopefully you can feel the love from me and all the many people praying for you and you will be strengthened by it. I pray that you will continue to trust our Father and just lean on him and know he has a plan. There is a song that our choir sings that says, “…when you can’t understand, trust His heart.” So many times that is what we have to do and I think you have figured that out. God bless you and strengthen you and give you peace and comfort…and continue to keep Layla out of pain. With much love…Judy
Today is Ash Wednesday, the beginning of the Lenten season. I almost opted to skip Mass tonight, but will attend in hopes that God will hear my prayers for Layla. I have been praying for Layla and your family everyday. The first thing I do is check your blog each morning for updates. As a mother to a 14 month-old girl, I can feel your heartbreak and tears. Please stay strong. God has a reason for everything.
May God give you and your family the strength to get through this unimaginable time and may He bless Layla Grace with a painless passing. My love and prayers to you, Layla, and your family! I just learned of your story, but I will never forget it and will be checking to see how you all are doing.
Love, Amy
Can’t get sweet Layla off my mind today.
You all are in my constant thoughts and prayers.
I second that Michelle, Shanna – I can’t get your beautiful baby, you & your family off my mind either…praying constantly for all of you. I have been reading some of my favorite scripture today and listening to my Jars of Clay – “Redemption Songs” CD a lot today – it’s brought me some peace and I am praying that you are finding some peace too. I am praying so hard (still for a miracle if it’s God’s will!!) but mainly for comfort & peace for Layla and for her to feel NO fear whatsoever. I am praying that you are able to hold her and love on her and that you are feeling our Heavenly Father wrap His arms around you. Let yourselves be carried through this. You will not leave my mind & prayers — nor many others, it seems there are people all over the country, even world who have you in their prayers. Much love to you…today, tomorrow and for a long, long time to come.
Oh, I am so, so sorry. No child should have to go through this, no parent feel so helpless.
I can only say, God bless all of you. Your little angel will always be with you in spirit. You’ll miss her warmth and hugs and voice…but know that God hears her, holds her near to Him in his EVERloving arms.
Love,
Diane
We don’t even know what to say. You’re a stranger yet I spent my entire lunch at church praying for you and your family. May God bring you peace and strength.
I prayed for miraculous healing for Layla Grace and strength for you and your family. We’ll all be praying for you
The McNett Family…..
Team In Training participants….
Shanna,
I don’t know you or Layla personally, but I have been praying for ya’ll for months. I am a 2 year old teacher at The Lamb School. We as a whole have been praying for her and your family. Toni Tanner gives us updates and a regular basis. I am so very terribly sorry to hear about the tragedy that your family is having to endure. I wish there was something we could do. Please know that you, your precious daughter, and your family are very loved by The Lamb School teachers. We will continue to pray fervently for her comfort and your peace.
THANK YOU GOD FOR A GOOD DAY FOR LAYLA!!! KEEP THE PRAYERS POURING IN!!!!!
Praise the Lord for Layla’s good day! I’ll be on my knees praying for another!
PTL!!! SO, so glad you had a good day with Layla!!! Will be praying for more of them in the days to come!!! Love & peace to you all!
Shanna- I saw little Layla’s facebook profile posted on a friends Facebook page and have been following your courageous battle for a short time. You are quite possibly one of the strongest people! That little angel of yours is such an amazing little girl! While I can’t completely understand what you are going through, as a mom of a 20 month old this absolutely breaks my heart. After reading your latest blog I broke down in tears because as a mom I do take advantage of the time that I have had with my little girl and I thank you for putting that back in perspective for me. I pray constantly for your precious Layla and for your family. I realized after seeing the prayer vigil that ya’ll must live near me. If I can do anything please let me know!
Have been praying every day for months for little Layla. I am asking God to heal her and take away all of her illness. I am asking God to make her a strong healthy child again. Everyone praying for Layla pray for her healing. At 11:00 a.m. on Thursday the 18th EVERYONE pray that Layla’s cancer be removed from her body and that she be healed. God is the ultimate healer and our prays in unison will definitely be heard. xoxox’s to Layla
I was directed to Layla’s site only today by Jake Dambrauskas. Layla is a most beautiful little girl! I am heart broken to learn of the journey you and your family are enduring. My thoughts are with all of you and I pray Layla is able to be free of pain.
My heart goes out to Layla, you and your family. I have two beautiful baby girls, and cried for yours while thanking God for mine. Oh the pain and suffering little Layla has endured with such a smiling face! We can all learn from Layla’s story and your family’s enduring love and courage! Godbless you alland may Layla’s journey to our Savior be a peaceful one.
I have followed your story ever since Judith started doing the eBay auctions for your precious daughter. I have no words that haven’t already been said to you. I just wanted to thank you for sharing your story with us and for allowing us to be touched by Layla’s beauty and by your strength. This has been such an eye opening experience for me to read your story daily. It has made me see my weakness as a mother and the blessings I have in my own 2 sons. May God wrap His arms around you and your family and take precious care of little Layla.
Love and prayers from Ashland, Ky.
Praying for you and your precious little girl. My heart breaks for what you have been through, are going through and will go through. You are an amazing mommy- know that we are sending love and prayers your way.
I am so happy that Layla had a great day! I am still praying that she receives a miracle and stays with us here on earth much, much longer. I hope that every moment from here forward that she is peaceful and comfortable. I pray that you see many more smiles, and hear many more requests for cookies, juice and books to be read. I am inspired to be the best mommy that I can be to my 3 little girls. They are pretty much the same ages as your 3 girls. Aren’t girls great?! My oldest daugher saw Layla’s pictures and said, “oh, isn’t she so cute mommy? Go back I want to see more pictures of her.” Sending love and strength to you and your family from San Diego, CA.
Shanna…My words probably won’t do justice considering what my heart is feeling for you and sweet, sweet, beautful Layla. But, I make a promise to you today…Layla’s life WILL impact many lives! As I’ve said before, you’re an inspirational mother…and today’s post really humbles me. You have made me take a step back and really think about what matters in life…and everytime my 2 year old frustrates me while “helping me,” I will stop and say a prayer for you, for Layla and for your entire family.
Begging for God’s Mercy,
Cheryl
Shanna,
My heart aches for you and your family. :*( I am praying and thinking of your sweet baby Layla everyday. And as well as the many people have said above… because of your story I will hug my daughter a little longer and not take my loud house for granted.
xoxo Melinda Ann
I have been praying for your family constantly. As a Mom of a 22 month old little girl myself, I can’t not stop thinking and praying for you.Tonight I lit a candle at Church for Layla. Tears stream down my face as I read yet there is strength in your words which is very moving. I will continue to pray hard for your family during this time. I am so sorry that you are having to experience this. Layla is so beautiful! Those eyes just melt your heart!
As we head into the Lenten season may our thoughts be on what Christ has done so that we have the hope of Heaven. Praying.
Luke 18:31-33 Then he took unto him the twelve, and said unto them, Behold, we go up to Jerusalem, and all things that are written by the prophets concerning the Son of man shall be accomplished. For he shall be delivered unto the Gentiles, and shall be mocked, and spitefully entreated, and spitted on: And they shall scourge him, and put him to death: and the third day he shall rise again.
Prayer Bears
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I’m praying for you all, from across the vast Atlantic Ocean.
Leyla is love, light, peace, joy and perfection.
Dear Shanna,
I am just finding out about your precious Layla, I wish I had known about her earlier so I could have shared all the special moments she has brought to you, your family and so many others.
Reading your story made me realize how precious time with a loved one can be. My children are grown, but I now have grandchildren. I try never to take the time I spend with them for granted, because they amaze me everyday, as I know Layla amazes you.
She was a blessing from God, and he gave her to you because he knew you would take care of her and love her for how ever long he allowed you to keep her. He trusted you with his special angel and will walk with you, Layla, Claire, Jenna and your husband throughout your lives to comfort and guide you through this journey you are on.
Your faith, courage and strength has let Layla know how much she is loved and to know she is not in this fight alone.
May God bless you and your family, and please know my prayers are with you and yours every day.
Terry Lee
Royse City, Texas
I found your blog a week or so ago and every day since I have prayed several times a day for your little Layla, your family, her doctors… I know we don’t know each other and our paths in life may never cross, but your family, this story, has forever touched my heart. I am a new mommy as of Aug ’09 and since my daughter was born; I have made a habit of praying with her as I rock her to sleep at night. Since reading your story, I hold her just a little tighter, pray just a little harder and thank God just a few extra times. We pray hard for your Layla. We serve a Mighty, Mighty God and believe that he delivers miracles and we pray hard for a miracle for Layla.
I read your blog and I wonder if I would have your poise, your together-ness, your strength if I were in your position and I don’t know that I would/could. I admire you. I love you and your Layla without knowing you.
I will continue to pray my heart out for you because it has forever been touched by the life of your special, beautiful daughter, Miss Layla Grace.
there are no words to express the deep sorrow I feel for you and your family…what a brave and beautiful little girl.thank you for sharing this and reminding me how fragile it all is…and that every moment should be cherished.
I just ran into your blog a few days ago and i can’t get Layla out of my mind.. I am praying so hard for her and also for you and your family. It breaks my heart to know that such a beautiful precious little angel has to leave so soon. I pray that the time you have left with her is peaceful and pain-free and that the Lord gives you the strength to endure.
Dear Shanna,
My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry for this pain. (You don’t know me- I was told about you from a friend.) I have been reading through your blog and looking at the pictures of your sweet girl, and my son, who is 5 1/2, asked me about Layla. I told him about her, and he started asking questions. When I got to the part about where things stand now, he protested, “But she didn’t get to know much about God yet!” Then, after thinking, a minute later I heard him musing, “But she will learn a LOT about Him in heaven!”
I know that however much it helps to know how happy she will be, wrapped in perfect love and wholeness, it does not diminish the pain of separation you will feel. But we do pray that God gives you supernatural peace and His comfort in ways you cannot explain when the pain is the most intense. From friends we know who have lost children, although the hurt and longing and missing never entirely goes away, the pain is not always so intense.
Praying for you in Dallas,
Laura Joseph
Read your blog for the 1st time yesterday and I just cried. I rocked my daughter a little longer and hugged my son an extra time. Thank you for sharing such painful emotions. There hasn’t been a waking hour since I read this that I haven’t been in prayer for you and I will continue to be! Much love.
I will pray for your little one and words cannot describe my feelings of sorrow. I am a mother of 4 and i couldn’t even imagine what you and her are going through. All my love Amy xxxxxxx
DEAR FAMILY, OUR PRAYERS ARE ABUNDENT. GOD HEARS ALL THE PRAYERS FOR YOUR SWEET CHILD. HIS WILL BE DONE. 2 TIMOTHY 4:7-8, “I HAVE FOUGHT THE GOOD FIGHT, I HAVE FINISHED THE RACE, I HAVE KEPT THE FAITH. THERE IS IN STORE FOR ME THE CROWN OF RIGHTEOUSNESS, WHICH THE LORD THE RIGHTEOUS JUDGE, WILL AWARD ME ON THAT DAY.” GOD BLESS YOU ALL. WITH MUCH LOVE. CARLA WOOD
Your story was passed on to me from a friend of a friend of a friend. My heart and prayers go out to you and your precious little girl. I don’t know why these things happen, we can’t understand them but please do know that many many people from around the country and the globe are praying for all of you.
Jeannine
Beautiful beautiful beautiful Layla,
I find myself praying several times a day for your complete healing by the miraculous hand of our Lord.
I will continue to pray for you and your family. I have a 3 year old cousin who vows to “kick cancer in the butt”. I know with your strength and God’s help, cancer should be scared of you!
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
“Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.” – Hebrews 11:1 (NIV)
With faith, your strength and the Lords will, I pray you “kick cancer in the butt”.
A friend of mine posted your story on FaceBook asking that we all take a moment to pray for you and your family. I have 3 children; a 9 year old, 6 year old and a 10 month old. I cannot imagine what you must be going through. You must have one brave little girl on your hands. Please know that we are praying for you and your family. Thank you for sharing your story with us.
I was heartbroken as I read your posts, but at the same time, I am amazed by your strength and grace in the face of every mother’s worst nightmare. I will pray for you, your family and your sweet Layla Grace. Sometimes it’s so hard to understand why bad things happen to people — especially children — I just try to remember that God has a plan and that we are all in his hands…You are truly an inspiration. God bless you and your family and Layla. I pray God will take care of you all and welcome Layla into his sweet embrace. I wish I had something to say that could offer some comfort — all I can think of to say is that you truly are an inspiration and one of the bravest and strongest souls I have ever encountered. God Bless and keep you.
I pray that the pain you are experiencing now will find comfort that comes from G-d only. My prayer for you all is that the painful memories in time will become bittersweet as you remember these moments as the closest ones a parent can have with their child and G-d.
Isaiah 40:11 He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm, and carry them in his bosom, and shall gently lead those that are with young.
Our love and prayers,
Mary Hansen, Shauna Carpenter, and families
This story is so heartbreaking and humbling. I have four kids of my own and I too have often thought what I wouldn’t do for a moment of peace, but I’d endure it all for their health, I have been lucky for the most part my kids are healthy and I thank God for that. You are a strong woman and a great mother to know what is coming and still be able to hold it all together. Prayers for Layla and your family
Shanna, Ryan, Claire & Jenna –
I just saw your site through COLE’s Foundation & wanted to drop in & let you know that I am so sorry that Layla is going to be leaving for heaven so soon. Please know that you will be in my thoughts & prayers.
Sharon
I continue to pray that God removes the cancer from your beautiful girl’s body. Every night, when I say prayers with my daughter, we lift Layla Grace up. It breaks my heart to see a child go through this, and for you as her parents to have to go through this. Blessings on all of you.
I am so sorry your beautiful Layla is facing this terrible monster. I was directed to your site by Krystine Vermeer. Or daughter also fought cancer for 18 monts. She had a brain tumor…astrocytoma anaplastic. She won that battle on November 7, 2009, when she finally entered into heaven. I believe that our children are more at peace about what they are facing, then we as parents are. I am not an expert. I don’t have all the perfect words. But I sort of understand what you may be feeling. If there’s any way I may ever offer you some comfort, please contact me: tasha.ives@yahoo.com
Our website, where you can read my Sydney’s story is:
http://www.ivestrong.com
If you never feel the need to read that story or contact me personally, I completely understand. Just know that the prayers of a mother who understands are with you.
God Bless,
Tasha Ives
I just discovered your blog. I am so sorry. I pray for the best for Layla and all her family.
As a mom who has lost a child, I often think that I can understand the painful road that other parents are walking, and empathize with their pain…but to hear the pain and sadness that your family and Layla are experiencing right now just moves me to tears from my core. I’ll never understand while such beautiful, wonderful children have to endure such horrible struggles.
I am praying that the power of all our tears and prayers can heal Layla.
You are in my thoughts and my strongest prayers as you comfort and love your sweet girl.
As a mother of has a lost a child, I am praying so very, very hard for your miracle!
God, please grant Layla Grace this miracle!
I was referred to this site by a friend of mine. Once I started reading, I couldn’t stop. This story is both tragic and inspiring. I cannot imagine the turmoil you must be feeling and the suffering your whole family has and will endure. I pray that God will hold you all in his hands and guide you with his comfort and strength through this transition. I have been blessed by Layla without even knowing her. Rest assured that now, each time I feel frustrated or wish my 14 month old son would leave me alone for a bit so I could get something done, I will remember you and Layla and I will take the time to just pick him up, hold him, tell him I love him. The chores and “To-Do” lists can wait…forever if they have to. Your family and Layla are in my thoughts and prayers. Trust in him, and he will see you through.
Dear mrs.Shanna. My name is leah and im in mrs.manfulls 8th grade math class. I have been told Layla Grace’s story and i want to let you know that i have been and still am praying for you.. as i read this blog me and my mother got teary eyed because you have so much confidance and you are so positive about the whole thing. I love little layla grace and i haven’t even met her. Stay strong and give layla a kiss for me plz.
Still praying all throughout the day for a miracle — for our Heavenly Father to HEAL beautiful Layla. Will continue to pray this along with my other prayers of peace, love, comfort, and strength for Layla & all of you.
Shanna & Ryan and family –
I personally dont know you, I actually stumbled across this blog on the village church page on facebook. I wanted to let your family know that I am praying for yall and for sweet Layla. This blog is so touching to me – I have a 9 month old and after reading this, will soak up every single moment we have as our family, for only God truely knows when it will be His time. Praying hard from East Texas
My daughter forworded your blog of dear sweet Layla on to me. My heart breaks for you and your family. No mother should ever have to go through such pain. She is such a beautiful angel.I wish I could know her and you. You are so strong and brave. God bless you and your family. It will be an honor to lift Layla and your family up to our most Gracious Heavenly Father. May he do a miraculous healing on Layla! My love to you all~~~
Praying, praying, praying for you all. I pray for peace over all of you.
May God wrap you in his arms and hold you up when you can not stand on your own. I will pray for you and your family!! Your strength is amazing!
Hi
I’m an 8th Grader at Medina Valley Middle School in Castroville Tx,
My teacher Mrs. Manfull told the class today that Layla was really sick right now, so I want to tell you that Layla will be in my prayers.
I hope she does just fine fighting this terrible monster…
From: Jonathan Solis
Medina Valley Middle School
Dearest precious sweet Layla, my heart is just broken for you and your family for what is happening. Asking the Lord to cover you completely with His awesome love, amazing grace, overwhelming mercy and calming peace bringing you and your family comfort and strength.
Dear Shana,
I pray that God watches over little Layla forever. I know that Layla will always be in your hearts and you will always be in hers. I am very emotional because of the feeling in your writing. I can barely put these words into a sentence, but that doesnt stop me from praying for you and her.
Sincerly, Ruben Mendez
Thank you for sharing your beautiful daughter’s life. I am so touched and in awe of your grace and strength. I hope Layla will find peace and and end to suffering. I also hope that in time your family will also find peace and comfort, too.
I came acrossed your site via another child fighting cancer. My daughter was diagnosed with medulloblastoma with metastic disease to the spine (cancerous brain and spine tumors) when she was 24 months old. I look at the pictures of Layla and I see my daughter. I wish that I had magic words to make your pain go away. I will start praying for Layla and peace for your family.
No words will ever amount to the hurt my heart goes through when reading about Layla. There is no possible way for me to tell you how much I think about and pray for little Layla during the day. No story has ever touched my heart the way this one has. I am literally laying in bed for hours at a time just thinking about her, and how strong both she & your family are. She reminds me so much of my daughter. The facial expressions, the cute outfits. I am no longer as quick to get her to sleep as I used to be. You just never know.
I just can’t figure out why G-d does these things. Why innocent babies have to go through this kind of pain and torture. Please know that you have hundreds of supporters who would do anything to help out. You are ALWAYS in someone’s thoughts. <3
Dear Marsh Family,
I was just told about Layla’s cancer today on Facebook, and my heart goes out to all of you. I am battling metastatic kidney cancer that has spread to my lungs and bones, so I have some inkling of what you all are going through, with your precious baby girl. I once knew a very old lady tell me ” well I just buried my oldest son and before that I have buried my youngest son, my oldest daughter, my parents, all of my brothers and sisters and 2 daughter-in-laws, so now it is just me and my youngest daughter and I have learned that God will never put more on us than we can handle, so I pray everyday for the Lord to give me strength. I hope those words might provide some help for your family in your time of need. You have my thoughts and prayers.
Your precious little baby and your family is in my prayers.
Know that I’m praying!
I Peter 1:6-9 Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations: That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ: Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory: Receiving the end of your faith, even the salvation of your souls.
Prayer Bears
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Layla is always in my heart, I will continue to pray God HEALS her!!! I was so happy to read that you had a good day with her yesterday. My heart aches for you and your family.
Always in my thoughts…
Jennifer
I just discovered this post and this blog this morning. I am so very sorry that you and your family are suffering this way. My thoughts will be with you and will pray that God comforts and hold her and all those that love her!
Words can’t describe my sorrow for you and your family. Layla is absolutely adorable. This is something no parent, grandparent, sibling, even friend would ever want to go through. My heart breaks because of our human emotions and even knowing she’ll be whole and in no pain doesn’t lesson the anguish we feel on having to see a precious baby go through the pain and suffering that she has endured. We pray, pray, pray for everyone involved, His will be done but in doing so, we pray for understanding on how to heal so many broken hearts. Sleep well, Layla, and know that you are loved. To her family, I know you want to hold her, kiss her, protect her and take away her pain, just know that there are so many prayers being said on her behalf. God bless all of you.
This is my first time visiting your blog, my friend sent me the link. I want you to know that your beautiful daughter has truly touched my heart. Your amazing, heartfelt words have honestly made me look at life in a different perspective. It is hard to know what to say, because I cannot imagine what you are going through, but I just wanted you to know that I, amoung thousands of others, find your family truly inspiring and will walk with Layla in my heart, thoughts and prayers everyday. I pray for the strength of your entire family and for a miracle to take over her little body. God Bless Layla…
I have followed Layla for over a year…back when our daughter was critically ill I fell out of contact with a lot of the kids I followed and was shocked and in disbelief when I was able to catch up a couple of days ago. Not Layla, no way. Since then I come back here several times a day to look at her beautiful pictures and hope for reassuring words from you. My heart hurts so badly for you right now. Your most recent post hit the hardest. I just thought I should leave you a note today. Your love for Layla is incredibly beautiful and I don’t think she could ask for a better momma and daddy.
hugs,
gina
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/taylorjones
I’ve been following Layla Grace in Mrs. Manfulls class and i am truly sorry for what your family is going through. I am a young follower of christ and i fully rely on him to relieve you of your pain. i would like you to know that you will be in my prayers and every moment God is watchin over you!
My heart is breaking for your sweet family, though we’ve never met. Layla is in my prayers today. Thank you for the courage to share your story; I am so humbled and reminded to appreciate every moment I have with my daughter.
I know we dont even know each other but I have been following your story since it was on the TCH page. I think about you all constantly and have been praying for you. It has brought a much need appreciation to my life regarding the time I spend with my 3 year old daughter. You have such an amazing way with putting you thoughts and emotions into words. Its beautiful. I didnt know if you are Dave Matthews fans or have heard his song Baby Blue. I think of Layla every time I hear it. Still praying!!
Praying no news is good news today. Keep fighting, sweet girl. You have so many people storming the gates of heaven on your behalf!
~Michelle
Your story has touched me deeply. Reading your posts have made me look at the world a whole lot differently. May God bless Layla and your family.
shanna… i am in tears right now as i think about all of those times i too have been frustrated with the kids… although it may not be of any consolation, i know it’s something we are all guilty of from time to time… i want you to know that your story has really touched my life and i will continue to pray that God will give you and your family peace as you continue to go through this process… Layla is truly an angel… God bless all of you
Shanna, I dont know you but wanted to tell you i am saying a prayer for you. You are going thru the same things with Layla that I was going thru just one month ago. Life is SO TOTALLY UNFAIR! If and WHEN u hav a few moments take a look at Bay’s website…maybe it will help u I dont know. I very happy to know you have your FAITH!! Hold tight to it girl…and treasure every last mili-second you have with Layla!
Our daughter was diagnosed with Stage IV Neuroblastoma at the age of six. There is nothing quite like taking the cancer journey with a precious daughter. Your Layla is a sweet treasure–loved on earth, loved in heaven.
Becky Smith
caringbridge.org/nc/sarahsmith
Layla has captured the hearts of so many in this world, she is truly a sweet little angel. My wife and I have shared Layla’s story and website with many of our students and they have all fallen in love with Layla. She just has the wonderful, Godly-Angel feeling about her. We all feel so badly for what your family has to endure, as a parent, I can’t imagine the feelings you are feeling right now. I pray for peace and comfort for all of your family, it is only God who can bring comfort in the midst of storm and pain. You are all constantly in our thoughts and prayers!
In Christ’s Love
I am so touched by beautiful Layla – I am so sad. I think about you and your family everyday and wish you strength and peace.
Her message of love is overwhelming and after reading your post I will appreciate being interrupted by my kids forever.
Thank you Layla and her Mom.
Marsha
God bless you and your sweet, beautiful girl.
There are no words right now – and I am sure that everyone else has said everything I would want to say… but I am praying. I am praying for your sweet baby girl, and for the rest of your family. For comfort, for peace, for the grace of God to just hug you all so tight.
All my love and prayers being sent your way!
Shanna,
There are no words. I can’t comprehend what you, the girls and your family must be feeling. I remember when Jenna was born and Meredith was only 2… we had no idea what we were supposed to do with them! Now, the question seems to be what do you do without them? I have been praying for Layla, you, the girls, and the family since I learned of Layla’s journey. I have been praying for healing for Layla’s little body and peace beyond comprehension for you and the family. I know that God will heal Layla, I suppose it just isn’t the way all moms would want. I will continue to pray for you all.
In HIS love, Tava (Dalton) Grosz and Sharon Dalton
I just learned of your site through COLE’S Foundation. I am praying for Him to show us a miracle through Layla Grace as He heals her body completely. I ask Him to please give you the comfort, peace, strength, faith, and rest during this difficult time in your lives. I pray He helps your other daughters understand what is going on as best they can. Lord, please just protect this beautiful family as they struggle with all of this. May He bless and keep you in the palm of His hand.
COLE’S Prayer Team
http://www.colesfoundation.
Janet
Praying for sweet Layla Grace and your family.
I learned of Layla and your family through a friend of a friend, and have been following your website for weeks. I watched the family photo video tonight and could not stop crying. I am amazed by the strength of your family throughout this journey. It’s difficult to understand why your angel is needed in heaven so soon, but we know she is loved by Him now and always. I will continue to pray for Layla and for your family. You have reminded me how precious our children are, even when they are at their worst. God Bless.
I just looked at the photo montage of your family, and I am so moved – it is gorgeous – Layla is gorgeous – your daughters are all so beautiful. The photos of Layla reading with her daddy are especially touching and precious. Praying for a miracle…
All the best,
Terez in Sugar Land
The photos taken by Christie Lacy took my breath away – powerful love beautifully captured. You are such a beautiful family and I feel so honored to be praying for you all…though I wish more than anything that I didn’t need to be. Your precious Layla is so beautiful and I am praying praying praying for her – for a miracle and healing here on earth. I hope Layla & you all have had a good day today. My 2 year old son thinks Layla is so pretty and he’s been saying prayers for her with me and singing “you are my sunshine” for her. She is sunshine. God Bless Layla Grace and you whole family. Much love you.
I came upon Layla’s story through some friends on Facebook. It is so heartbreaking to know that you and your family are going through this. I cry with every post I read. I don’t understand why this can be happening to such a BEAUTIFUL child. May God be with you always and give Layla much strength .
Praying for your family daily…
First of all my thoughts and prayers and my heart go out to you and your family. Reading the entries you have made, has brought tears to my eye, forget just tears, it made me flat out cry.
Your daughter is beautiful, she is simply a precious darling! So strong.
I first saw your posts on Twitter I think and had followed a little of Layla’s story there. I did not know until just a few moments ago that she had Neuroblastoma.
That is also the cancer that plagues my little man.
My heart aches for your family. I send out positive thoughts, and love and virtual hugs.
Stopping by to let you know I’m still praying!
I Peter 1:18-21 Forasmuch as ye know that ye were not redeemed with corruptible things, as silver and gold, from your vain conversation received by tradition from your fathers; But with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot: Who verily was foreordained before the foundation of the world, but was manifest in these last times for you, Who by him do believe in God, that raised him up from the dead, and gave him glory; that your faith and hope might be in God.
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I just wanted to let you know that my dear friend Beth passed away this past Friday, Feb 12th of Breast Cancer at the age of 37. She loved children and sadly left behind her 7 year old daughter Emma.
As I read your story, the thought that kept coming to me was that Beth is watching over your beautiful Layla. Beautiful Angels…
All my love and prayers ~
i was sitting on the couch holding my 6 month old while he was asleep. i was to on my mobil myspace and i saw that kat von d had posted “happy birthday daddy”. i went to see the comments people lest her and one of them said laylagrage.org over and over again and about her fight. so i went to the site and i read your story. it has truly touched my heart. this is the first i have heard of little miss layla and i will keep up with her and keep your family in my prayers.
i was sitting on the couch holding my 6 month old while he was asleep. i was to on my mobil myspace and i saw that kat von d had posted “happy birthday daddy”. i went to see the comments people left her and one of them said laylagrage.org over and over again and about her fight. so i went to the site and i read your story. it has truly touched my heart. this is the first i have heard of little miss layla and i will keep up with her and keep your family in my prayers.
Shanna,
I just found your site via a link posted on another website. I feel your pain. I can relate. My g’son was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor (Extraskeletal myxoid chondro sarcoma) 4 1/2 months ago. He was 11 months at the time of his diagnosis. When i browsed thru your site i was amazed how similar our stories are. We took our Asher to 3 different ERs in 3 days, 1 pediatrician appointment and were told, gas, constipation, teething. Normal baby things. Thank god the third ER at childrens hospital finally saw something wasn’t right, by then Asher was declining fast, after 8 hours in the ER he was admitted and they did a CT and found the tumor. The tumor was removed and he’s currently undergoing proton radiation in Indiana.
I have never been so amazed by the strength of the children we have met in the last few months, at the same time i have never seen as much heartbreak in my life. I will pray for you and your family for peace and comfort during this difficult time, and for comfort and no pain for your baby. She’s a precious little girl.
Hi my name is Mary.
I found your blog on facebook.
One of my friends posted it on her wall asking everyone to pray for Layla.
That is all I have done since.
I am a 21 year old mom of a witty gorgeous two year old little girl.
There are days where like you said I would wish for 5 minutes of silence….
I have learned from Layla’s and your journey that I will never take my Bailey for granted. She also loves to help put the dishes away….
I can never thank Layla and your family enough for teaching me the impotance of time and family…..
I truly truly hope that Layla gets her miricale…..
All my hopes and prayers go to Layla and you and your family.
May god be with you and yours.
this is somethin where at the end of the story u think that there will be a happy ending.. when there wasnt.. my heart just went out to u and ur family. i dont see how this is fair but i have faith that everything happens for a reason.. i pray that this makes u stronger and it is a lesson that miracles happen to those who believe.. little Layla WILL heal and be in your life.. she will teach a lesson to all that know her.. and I WILL BE PRAYING FOR U AND YOURS THAT U ALL ARE ABLE TO KEEP UR FAITH
Layla is a beautiful little girl! I am praying for all of you during this difficult time. God bless you!
It is amazing to think what our lives may bring. I pray for Layla and your family after reading her story and am grateful for you for sharing. Layla Grace is a treasure.
Your little Layla is perfect. Thank you for sharing her with the world.
This song came to mind. Go to the link below the song if you want to hear the tune.
1. He giveth more grace when the burdens grow greater,
He sendeth more strength when the labors increase,
To added affliction He addeth His mercy,
To multiplied trials, His multiplied peace.
* His love has no limit, His grace has no measure,
His power no boundary known unto men,
For out of His infinite riches in Jesus,
He giveth and giveth and giveth again.
2. When we have exhausted our store of endurance,
When our strength has failed ere the day is half-done,
When we reach the end of our hoarded resources,
Our Father’s full giving is only begun.
http://www.hymnal.net/hymn.php/nt/723
Shanna,
I found your blog through a friend. I cannot even begin to imagine what you and your family are going through right now, but I do understand this terrible disease as I am fighting another form of it myself. As a mother I understand those feelings of “being interrupted” or “needing some quiet time”. I am guilty of that myself. After reading about your precious Layla your words have touched me deeply. We all must cherish every moment we have with our children and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me to realize that. My heart aches for you and your family. I will keep beautiful Layla in my prayers daily that the Lord will bring healing to her little body because with God anything is possible. I pray for peace and comfort for your family. There are prayers for Layla all over this Country and God is hearing everyone of them. God be with you and your family.
My name is Ann-Marie and I’m in 8th grade. I am terribly sorry for what you all are going through. I will keep Layla Grace and you in mine and my family’s prayers.
Ann-Marie Keller
Shanna,
I don’t know you and you don’t know me, but I wanted to let you know how much your story has touched my heart. No one can truly understand the abundance of emotions you may be experiencing right now. I too have been in a similar situation with my father who passed away last September and currently with a friend of mine that is struggling with aggressive brain cancer. It is never easy watching someone you love so much go through what they are going through. They never complain about treatments, the pain, and yet they continue to stay strong. They live for every second and every moment in life. Sometimes we should step back and learn from from them!
All I can say is, keep your faith in God. Cherish all the moments you have left with your little angel, know within your heart that you have done all that you could do, love every moment for what it is and never look back with regrets. I will be praying for Layla Grace and your family. You have lots of old friends, made some new friends through your amazing story of strength and love for Layla and all of us are here to support you and your family!
Sometimes we all need a little strength and help from above. Prayers can become miracles. Never give up your faith in God and he will never let you down… Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.
Your friend, Tracy
I’m so sad that Layla has been in pain — I will be praying extra, extra hard and often today for her to be comfortable & relaxed and also awake and present with you all, and that you will have a good day as a family – enjoying each other. I will not stop praying for a miracle – for complete healing. Praying for God to hold you all today. Love & peace to you all.
Always praying for your sweet girl. Always praying for her miracle. Always praying for her family. Always. Praying.
I came across your blog via an ebay auction last Friday night, right before 7 pm. I prayed for Layla and your family during the vigil, a thousand plus miles away.
I have no words, no scripture… just prayers for you.
I pray you can feel the love and compassion from complete strangers, like myself.
Please, Lord, I pray this family can feel your loving arms around them. Hold them close.
Deeply touched,
Monica
I’m at a loss for words. My heart aches for you. For your family. For your sweet precious girl. I am so so sorry. I am in tears. I will be praying, praying, praying….
God Bless.
Love,
Jenny
Thanks for sharing your story! As a mother, I couldn’t imagine what you all are going through right now! Sending prayers your way from West Virginia!
Have been praying all day — I hope Layla had a good day and I pray that she is more comfortable tonight. It breaks my heart to think that she is in pain. I cannot even begine to imagine how difficult this is for you — Know that I (and so many others) are praying for you…I’m praying for our Heavenly Father to hold you like only He can.
She is absolutely beautiful.
I am so sorry.
Praying right now!
I Peter 1:23-25 Being born again, not of corruptible seed, but of incorruptible, by the word of God, which liveth and abideth for ever. For all flesh is as grass, and all the glory of man as the flower of grass. The grass withereth, and the flower thereof falleth away: But the word of the Lord endureth for ever. And this is the word which by the gospel is preached unto you.
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Sending virtual hugs and strength vibes. I lost my son to NB 2 years ago. I remember those last days (though I try to forget). Sweet, sweet Layla..I hope she meets my sweet Nathan in heaven. He has 2 little sisters here on earth.
praying very hard for you tonight. my heart is breaking for what you are going through.
i am also fighting cancer though a very different situation than yours. as i sat in my hair stylist’s chair on Friday, we prayed for you. sweet layla grace has touched many you will never meet.
i will be praying for a miracle in the watches of the night.
lisa
Came over from “Bring the Rain” (Angie Smith’s blog) to let you know that I am in prayer for you and your family during this time! What a beautiful little girl Layla Grace is!
We are praying with all our hearts for your family and little Layla. I pray she feels Gods arms surround her during this time. I just know with all my heart that she will. I am sharing your blog with my Facebook friends. We are all praying for Layla and all of you. I know how hard this is for you to share your story and it means so much to me. I don’t know you and have only come across your blog recently, but I love you and bless you.
Praying for Layla and your whole family. Praying that Layla is comfortable today, that you are able to hold her and that you feel our Lord’s arms around you all.
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:28-31
Just found your blog and wanted to let you know that I’m praying for your family, for Layla, and for peace during this difficult time.
True insight from such a devastatingly painful time in your life. I weep as my heart breaks for your family. Prayers for you every day…
Lord, look upon Layla Grace with eyes of mercy, may your healing hand rest upon her, may your lifegiving powers flow into every cell of her sweet little body and into the depths of her soul, cleansing, purifying, restoring her to wholeness and strength for service in your Kingdom. Amen.
Praying for you all.
May the Lord wrap His loving arms around you all.
Em
from Australia
Your blog was shared with me through FB. We lost our first son – but we never brought him home. 33 years ago he lived only 3 days. We still miss him, still grieve – but it eases. Be blessed by the joy she has known in her short life, the love she has experienced. There is nothing anyone can say, there is no way anyone can change this for you. Know that you all are being held up in prayer and that Layla will soon know eternal peace. My heart goes out to you.
Shanna
Your post touched my heart. I’m a mom of 3 teens. There’s nothing to compare how a mother’s heart feels for her children.
I think of how much I love my own kids…..and I know this is NOT how you imagined your life. There are no answers for this kind of thing. We have to figure out how to trust God even when it’s not going our way.
That’s my prayer for you….sweet lady. That as you walk this path with sweet Layla….your faith is being refined like gold. I also pray for peace and strength to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
So many hearts are touched by your precious baby. God loves you all so much. Praying right now…..this world will never be the same because Layla was here.
I have praying all day today that Layla had a good day and for continued comfort tonight. My heart aches so for your family, and I pray continually for God’s presence to surround your family. Your sweet Layla has touched mine and so many hearts… she will live forever with God and with us in spirit
Your sweet girl is beautiful.
Continuing to lift up prayer!
Psalm 71:1-3 In thee, O LORD, do I put my trust: let me never be put to confusion. Deliver me in thy righteousness, and cause me to escape: incline thine ear unto me, and save me. Be thou my strong habitation, whereunto I may continually resort: thou hast given commandment to save me; for thou art my rock and my fortress.
Prayer Bears
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We have continued to pray for Layla and your family. WE pray today that the surgery for the new pic line goes smoothly with no complications. My heart is breaking as an NB parent no child should have to go through what these kids have to go through. Prayers always.
PRAYING, PRAYING, PRAYING for the PICC line issue to be resolved with no complications, for strength for little precious Layla’s body, for NO PAIN for her & still, for God to HEAL her – Please Lord, in Jesus name. Praying for strength & comfort for the whole family. I am so sad & sorry you all are having to endure this — especially sweet Layla.
Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine. — Ephesians 3:20
PRAYING!! PLEASE Lord let them fix her PICC line with no problems…PLEASE Lord, let them work her in for a CT Scan & PLEASE Lord, let the CT scan show the tumors not growing or SHRINKING!!!!! PLEASE Lord, keep precious Layla Grace comfortable, without fear & in Your Loving Arms.
Hugs…if words have any power at all..let that power be heard through words of prayer , zillions of them, for Little Layla and your whole family…. May Courage and strength never leave your side…Please God..let thy Grace shine on..
Lord, please be with Layla. Please heal her tiny body. Please.
Just reading about Layla Grace for the first time today and feeling the pain of your entire journey all at once. I can’t even put into words the sorrow I feel for you as a mother. I wanted to let you know that I don’t pray very often. But today I prayed very hard. As we say at the close of every yoga class, may all beings be at peace. May all beings be free from suffering. That, I know, is God’s plan.
I also found Layla’s story today, and I have been thinking of you the entire day… praying that she is not in pain. I see the same innocence in her eyes that I see in my son, and I can’t bear to imagine her in pain. God, please heal her.
I’m having a hard time finding words. I do want you to know that I am praying for you all, and especially for a miracle for Layla. You’ve made me remember to not take every moment for granted, even unloading the dishwasher. You are strong and brave and there are thousands of arms around you all.
Dear Shanna,
I am so, so devastated to read your twitter update about the results of the scan. To say I am so sorry does not even say enough. I cannot imagine what you & your husband are going through and feeling. I know you all are weary, I am in tears for you…and pray the Lord gives you more strength. I don’t know Layla personally – and I can honestly say I love your precious, beautiful child, I have been so affected and forever changed by her life — so I can’t fathom how much pain this is bringing you who have loved & cherished her all her life.
I will not stop praying…for Layla’s HEALING, for her COMFORT, for her to be HELD by God…for you & Ryan & your other 2 girls to be held and carried in God’s Love & Mercy.
Dear Lord in Heaven, We all pray, Lord, for your Healing and Mercy for Sweet Layla Grace. In Jesus name, Amen.
just too let you know me and my church will be praying for layla !!! i am praying that the Lord will heal layla and allso her family will have some peace of mind !!!!
Dear God, Please hear our prayers for Layla. She needs your healing hands right now! Please wrap her in your arms, touch her sweet body and shrink her tumors. Please Lord comfort her Mom, Dad and sisters. Please God show us your love right now! Please, we beg of your mercy. Heal this child Lord! We pray in your name! Amen!
Just read about your Layla through Casey Callihan. I’m moved with compassion for Layla and your family. You don’t know me but we have the same God and I’m praying with you. Blessings.
I am so, so sorry to hear the news of the new tumors. May God hold her and your entire family and support network in the comfort of his arms. I pray that God remove the cancer from her tiny body and that he grant her a long, happy, fulfilling life. She is in my thoughts and prayers often throughout the day and I lift her up now as I type. Blessings on all of you.
I am so, so, so sad for your family. I came across your blog from a friend on Facebook and have been thinking about sweet little Layla and your family NON-STOP! I balled my head off for all of you and I just pray that God gives you some comfort during this very trying time. I am still praying for a miracle! Stay strong and just know that MANY people like me (who have never met you) are praying that angels surround your family and your precious daughter! God bless!!!
Lord, I know that you have plans for Layla Grace. I know that you will never leave us or foresake us. Please Lord we all beg of your healing power now. Layla needs you and I know you hear our prayers! Please Lord, heal this child! Please comfort her family and her sisters! We ask these things in your name!
Shanna…
We are praying like crazy! Praying for healing and comfort and, especially, praying for peace for your sweet family. You are amazing…truly AMAZING!
Please, Father, MERCY!
In Him,
Cheryl
I am so sorry to hear of the latest updates with Layla. I am praying nonstop for your entire family. I pray for comfort and peace for Layla and the whole family. God has plans for each and everyone of us that are nothing more than mysteries to us all. Layla has touched so many peoples lives, it is astonishing!
My continued thoughts and prayers for Layla’s miracle. May God continue to comfort and give you and your family strength and hope… hugs to all and sweet blessings for Layla, she is such a sweet angel. Thank you for keeping us up to date with her… she is on my mind at work all day.
God bless you all…we are praying for all of you…may God give you all peace, comfort and healing
I cried myself to sleep thinking about Layla and the family, and woke up thinking about you again. I just feel so heavy hearted for you. Maybe because I know what it is like to watch a child very very sick (ie my brother), maybe it is because I now have a little girl and can’t imagine going through this. Anyway, regardless, I have been praying lots for you, mainly because that is all I CAN do when it is on my heart all the time. And I don’t even know you at all! I feel called to offer all my little tiny everyday sufferings for you. I know God’s love surrounds your family, and little Layla, I just pray you all (especially her) feel that love through and through.
The power of prayer is an amazing thing. I have been and will continue to keep Layla and the rest of your family in my prayers. As the mother of 4 little ones, I can only imagine the emotions that are flooding through you right now. It’s always a challenge to trust in God when it feels as though your world is falling apart, but I pray that he will grant you wisdom and supernatural insight into His plan for Layla and the rest of your family. If He chooses to take her home, it just means her work here is done and that He has wonderous plans for her in Heaven. If He grants a miracle, there was a reason and divine purpose to everything she has suffered. In either case, your sweet angel has managed to touch more lives than you can possibly imagine, and that is a beautiful gift.
Praying for peace that passes understanding,
Jen
Shanna,
As I have followed your family’s journey, I have been so inspired. Layla has fought so hard and her strength and courage is amazing. I have noticed that the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. You are an amazing woman, I wish I had one tenth of your courage and you faith. Your faithfullness is amazing and I pray for you guys everyday. Layla’s story has touched so many hearts and brought so many to Christ, that she will truly have the most jewels in her crown. I continue to pray for her healing and I know that even in our darkest hours Christ can still heal. She is still fighting and I will continue to pray for her strength.
Your sister in Christ,
Mary from Houston,Texas
My two year old, Luke, sang “You are My Sunshine” for Layla again tonight — it’s so cute how he says “For Layla” then breaks out into song…”You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey, you’ll never know dear, how much I love you…please don’t take my sunshine away.”
Still praying for God to hear us and let “our sunshine” stay here on earth for a long time to come. Please. Lord. Please.
I know the feeling you are going through but the situation is that I am the one with cancer. I have no real time frame but I still live life each day as if it were my last. My children are of elementary age and i spend a lot of time with them for that reason( to hear the yelling and much more). I have my good days and bad days but so does everyone else. I hope you keep your strength as you go through this process so you can go on with life as a strong woman/mother/wife and person of faith, spirit and grace.
God bless all of you!!!
I would like you to know I am praying for your family. May a miracle happen and she be amazingly healed
we forget how blessed we are until we read stories like yours.
It just occurred to me, reading through all the comments, that in her short time on Earth, Layla has affected more lives and taught more people about what’s important than the average person could dream of. She has ministered to thousands, while most of us, as adults, have ministered to very few.
Her life bore a lot of fruit. I hope you take solace in that.
My sister just said what I needed to hear on facebook…..Layla has gotten people talking to God! Not about Him, but TO Him! These words may never give you what you need or want, but hopefully Layla’s impact on others may give you some peace at some point.
I am praying that God heals your sweet, beautiful little girl. I also am praying for peace for your whole family– the peace of Christ that surpasses all understanding.
I just spent the last two hours reading through Layla’s journey ~ I can’t even imagine the hurt and pain you are going through….You and Layla are two of the MOST courageous people that I have ever known.
Reading your posts ~ I am humbled. What you have been through and what you continue to go through ~ you will be in my thoughts and prayers. Layla is a beautiful little girl ~ there is no explanation on why this happens but from the comments I have read ~ you guys have touched thousands of people’s lives.
You have changed my life ~ for the better. To remember that I need to appreciate and be thankful for EVERY thing in my life ~ especially my two little boys.
ALL of my prayers are being sent to you and sweet Layla~
Your beautiful Layla has touched my heart… I will never ever take the small moments with my children for granted again. Your family will forever be in my heart and in my prayers.
My heart breaks for you tonight. May God hold you in His arms and guide you gently and safely in the hours to come.
We’ve never met but Layla is in my prayers – I carry your family in my heart.
I’m so sorry I couldn’t make it out to her prayer vigil. My family had just gotten in to town. Just know that she was and has been in my thoughts and prayers as has your whole family. We are always here if you need us. Please let us know if there is anything we can do.
Erica from TCH
Praying for you in Seattle!
Psalm 71:5-8; For thou art my hope, O Lord GOD: thou art my trust from my youth. By thee have I been holden up from the womb: thou art he that took me out of my mother’s bowels: my praise shall be continually of thee. I am as a wonder unto many; but thou art my strong refuge. Let my mouth be filled with thy praise and with thy honour all the day.
Prayer Bears
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Oh how my heart is just breaking for your precious family…I’m so sorry that you are having to walk through this. We know that God is HUGE and can answer prayers in mighty ways…and we also know He doesn’t always answer them the way we beg that He would. We lost our infant son 2 years ago and there are simply no words to describe it all… Praying for His peace to fill you, to overwhelm you in this time!
Love,
Kenzie
Psalm 61:2 “From the ends of the earth I will cry to you when my heart is overwhelmed; lead me to the rock that is higher than I.”
I can’t even begin to imagine what you and your family must be going through. Know that you are in my prayers.
hi.. im a military wife and i too have complained day in and day out i wish they would sleep for just a lil while so i could get something done today … but after reading your stories and trials.. ive decided i need to slow my life down and spend some time with my little ones and make everymoment of their lives count.they are so young and they only stay that way for a short time..i need to make the best of it before they are grown and in school… . as i sit here and type this im crying thinkin how hard it has to be for you to sit and watch your child suffer and not be able to do anything about it.. im so sorry you are going through this but i commend you for being able to. my heart goes out to you and your familly.. i wish you the best and i will put you and your family on our church prayer list.. good luck and I hope only the best for you
My prayers for you continue. I am on my knees for you all. Remember God’s presence is with you through the long watches of the night. We all hold you all tightly to our hearts.
Everything is a part of God’s plan. You and Layla have touched the hearts of so many. I know that there are no words to take away the pain but I feel that God has used Layla and you to bring many to their knees and talk to God as they have never done before. I know, because I am one such person.
“Suffer the little children to come unto me…”
May you, Layla and your family feel the presence of God now and always.
Roy Glenn
Birchwood, Tennessee
May the light of God’s love shine down on you and give you strength, peace and comfort in the days ahead. She is a sweet beautiful child of God, and her life has touched so many. God has head from so many about you and your family- and this is a testament to the love Layla Grace has spread.
Angels on your body!
Seeing my MIL pass away from cancer and only 3 weeks ago a best friend at the age of 29 lose her battle with brain cancer I cannot even begin to think what it would be like to see your precious child go through this, one that has not lived a full life. Being a mother to a 4 year old and a 17 month old I would be a mess. I admire your bravery and faith through this heartbreaking time.
I pray that god is watching over you all and that all the people here will keep your hearts filled with love at this time.
God bless.
Praying for you and your family.. She is a beautiful angel!!!! God Bless You and Your Family
i don’t even know you and i am sitting here with tears in my eyes praying for you and your family. i pray that layla grace finds peace and comfort. i also pray that you and your family find the strength to carry on in her memory. i pray your family recieves all the love and support possible. layla grace is in my prayers tonight.
I’m praying that Layla is comfortable. Bless her heart, I’m so sorry for all her pain and suffering. Please, God, take away her pain, heal this baby, we know miracles are possible! Bless her parents, sisters, grandparents, it’s so hard to understand and we know You have a plan for her, but dear God, help her, so many love her and are praying. Please, place Your loving hands on her and give her the peace that we all pray for. I can not imagine losing a baby, and if it’s Your will please let her not suffer any longer, keep her comfortable and pain free. Give her parents the chance to love on her, kiss her and hold her. We pray in Your loving name, amen.
My thoughts and prayers are with Layla Grace and your family. God Bless You!
Dear Marshes,
I pray that sweet Layla with be surrounded by love, comfort and peace as her journey ends. I pray that she will be pain-free with mommy and daddy at her side. May she not feel pain or fear, but know overwhelming love– from her family, from her prayer warriors, and from His mighty presence. We’re storming the gates of heaven with prayers for your Layla Grace!!!!
Your words jumped of the screen to me. When you talked about the quiet preparing you for the future to that of a pregnant woman nearing the end of her pregnancy. And it hurts my heart to know you long for the interruption and neediness. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You have touched many many people with your story of sweet Layla. I’m praying for peace for you. I feel so much for you I can’t explain it. My heart is aching with every update I read. Stll hoping …..
A stranger who caes
May her guarding Angel never leave her side. I have been following Layla Grace for over 4ms. She and you have renew my faith, I lost when my mother passed away, it took the little if all Angels to acomplish this miracle, no pastor or priest or therapist I’ve seen have been able to make me again belive . I pray day and night for her pain to be eased I think the Lord knows me again I belive. I’m here by your side take comfor in this , Layla has heled my heart and and now I belive ! God bless you Layla Grace, here by your side I will remain to the end! Xo. Ada
Oh she is such a beautiful girl!
I hope she win the “fight”. (:
God bless your family.
With love,
Sara ♥
Layla is just beautiful! I pray that she is content, and my heart and prayers are with Layla and your family. I read this blog entry through sobs…my daughter is 20 months and your story put me back into perspective, my daughter is my world, but sometimes “the world” gets in the way of that and I take moments for granted. Lets just say that I was very humbled.
God bless little Layla and your family.
*Hugs*
Lyndsey
She is so cute! So precious! Thank you for sharing your beautiful angel and your struggle with the rest of us. I’d write more, but I’m already crying & my sweetieboy needs some more juice… God bless you!
Just now found your blog thru a retweet on Twitter. I have a two year old little girl and I weep for you and with you because all that you regret and all you wish you had…I have. You’re right, I will hold to the sweet little voice wanting to run outside. You’re right. The time is too short, and yours is even shorter. I love you and I don’t even know you.
Thank you for the reminder. I truly am so sorry you have to go thru this.
I am truly sorry that sweet little Layla and your family are going through this. I stumbled across your story through a facebook post from one of my friends and I’m so glad I did. Layla is a beautiful little girl and I am and will be praying for her and for all of you. I am a stay at home Mom of a four year old daughter and 5 month old son and often find myself wishing for more “me” time. In fact, my fellow Mom friends and I often complain to each other about our kids not sleeping through the night, not taking naps, etc., because it leaves us no time to do things around the house or have a moments’ peace. I love my children – they are the center of my universe – and after reading your blog I realize that I take a lot for granted when it comes to them. In fact, I think I probably didn’t just “stumble” across your story after all, but was lead straight to it by God’s hand. I am in awe of your strength and your courage as a Mother. I can’t begin to tell you how sorry I am for all you are going through. But, I will tell you that it has changed my life for the better. Because of your story, I will stop complaining and be grateful for every second with my children. Every time I’m not able to finish the laundry or have to cut something short to take care of my children I will think of Layla, and know that life is short and is to be treasured. I will continue to think of you and your family and pray for you all.
I sit here and read all of your entries and I am very touched by Layla’s couragous battle. Looking at her bubble bath pics reminded me of my daughter Madisyn who just recently passed. I see the same twinkle in her eye that Madisyn had. To look at a child so young and small, they teach us very important values in life, and to us they seem old and wise. I am pleased to see that you still have your faith with you, because I have totally lost mine and it’s extremely difficult to earn back. I am keeping Layla and her family in my thoughts during this difficult time. I will pray for comfort and peace for this little angel!
I am a new mother and stay at home with my son and too have complained day in and day out wishing my son would sleep just a little while longer so I could get things done today that will change. I cant imagin what you are going thru. I lost my father at the age of 14 with lung cancer. As I read your blog entry through sobs and tears, I am so moved by your strength and wisdom. I pray for comfort and peace for your princess & family!
My niece sent me your link tonight Don’t know how or who sent to her but I am a grandmother of a 9 yr. old girl and my heart has been breaking all night. I have prayed for Layla, mom and dad and little sisters, I have tried to make sense of this but can’t. Never have been able to and I guess never will., but I do know this with all of my heart. Layla belongs to God, she is his child first and then ours. He holds her so very tightly in his loving arms. He will never leave her nor forsake her. We pray for complete healing of the physical body and yet sometimes we forget that God’s Will may not be for that physical body to be left here with us but to be in Heaven with him. We are only on loan to each other until such time as he sees fit for us to come be with him, some long lifwe and some very very short, Of course my Prayer is for complete healing of the psyical body and long life here on earth with us..thats what mothers and grandmothers pray for, but I also am praying for you mom and dad.. That God will give you comfort in this battle as you know we will have them on earth..I pray for sisters that may or may not know exactly whats going on but will definitely feel a lost if physical death comes. Please know that even when you don’t know someone that that doesn’t mean we don’t care.. We do..very very much I don’t know you but love you all the more My Prayers will continue for you and your beautiful family..God Holds you in his Love Melba Dreggors Willis, Texas
God bless little Layla Grace… she will be in my prayers tonite, tomorrow and everynight thereafter; but her story will be in my heart forever. Though weapy eyes I have managed to read on. Thank you for sharing Layla’s story, and thank you for putting so much into prospecitve. How we take for granted the chaotic days and sleepless nights . My heat weeps with sorrow for Layla and for your family. I cannot imagine the strength and courage you all possess. May the Lord bring you and Layla peace in your time of need. My heart truely goes out to all of you. God bless.
God bless little Layla Grace… she will be in my prayers tonite, tomorrow and everynight thereafter; but her story will be in my heart forever. Though weapy eyes I have managed to read on. Thank you for sharing Layla’s story, and thank you for putting so much into prospecitve. How we take for granted the chaotic days and sleepless nights . My heart weeps with sorrow for Layla and for your family. I cannot imagine the strength and courage you all possess. May the Lord bring you and Layla peace in your time of need. My heart truely goes out to all of you. God bless.
Wow, i just read you post from valentines and i just cried b/c i do that i wish for 10 or 20 mins a day just to get things done yet here you are with your beautiful baby girl who you just want one more day with just to hold her in your arms and i’m worried about my house staying clean all the time. You really opened my eyes to just hope precious our time with our kids is spend. I will be praying for you and your daughter! just know God is still in the miracle business!
Your little angel has brought tears to my eyes, humility to my heart and my knees to the ground. She is a valiant hero, who’s reminded me to stop going through the motion of living and thank the Lord for every second of sunshine and rain, every ounce of fresh air in my lungs and every warm embrace I’m fortunate enough to be given.
Know that your circle of prayer is two hearts stronger, two voices louder and two sets of hands wider. My husband and I bow our hands and beseech God to bless LaylaGrace with a miracle she deserves – the miracle of life. You are extraordinary parents for showing such immaculate strength and truly wonderful followers of the Lord to be sharing your pain and difficulties with us all. Your baby will be in my prayers until a miracle is bestowed. God bless.
What a beautiful little girl with a wonderful smile. I am so sorry you are going through this pain. I can’t understand why anyone has to go through what you are. You really made me stop and think. I am always running around and worrying about taking care of the house, this and that. Why? What is so much more important than a clean house are my two children, but that’s who I neglect trying to do all this. Our 3 year old son has been sleeping in our bed because he’s scared of the monsters in his bedroom. I complain sometimes about it, but I’m not going to anymore thanks to Layla. I’m going to enjoy it while I have that time with him. It’ll end soon enough and I’ll want it back. My baby daughter is so active and I also sometimes complain about how she wears me out. I’m going to stop and enjoy watching her figure out what she’s capable of doing. I thank you so much for the gift you and Layla gave me. When I get tired or frustrated I’m going to picture sweet Layla’s face and that beautiful smile and have her remind me to slow down and enjoy what is important. You are in my thoughts.
I just wanted to let you know that I am praying every moment for your wonderful family. My daughter was diagnosed with stage 3 intermediate risk neuroblastoma on Feb. 12, 2009 and every moment we have with her is an amazing gift.
Your faith and strength has truly touched me and I cannot thank you enough for being so open about what your family is experiencing right now. My heart goes out to all of you, know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers continuously and my little Annabelle will be praying for your Layla as well!
I just found your site through Facebook and my heart is breaking for you and your family. I am absolutely amazed at your strength. You are an amazing mama. Layla, you and your entire family will be in my constant prayers. God bless you.
I am not a very religious person. Haven’t been to church in years let alone pray. But something about little Layla’s story got to me. I couldn’t even imagine having to go through what you are going through. You are so brave, I would be a complete mess. I don’t even think I would be able to function. I have been praying for Layla to get better, for her toumors to shrink & for her to be able to run around with her sisters again. I don’t even know if I am doing it right (or if there is a right or wrong way) but I have been doing it. Layla’s story touched me so much. I don’t even know her but I feel like I do. I think about her all day long & just want her to get better for you guys.
That you are even able to get out of bed each morning or let alone type these words in every post is amazing. Finding the strength to do just that seems nearly impossible…your love for God and your family is so deep and really touches my heart reading it. Sounds silly to say but I came across your story in a tweet that Kim Kardashian posted & I have been crying ever sense. Your daughter is absolutely gorgeous & her smile radiates through her little body. With continued prayers I hope that it will make the future of your family at least bareable…and some time again joyful. God has reasoning and purpose for all he does, although sometimes its completely hard to grasp as to what it could be..its there..somewhere…thank you for sharing your story with the world as hard as it is…an immense amount of prayers from myself.
I cannot imagine going through something likie this. I have lost two children, and although it was hard, it came quick and we did not have to watch our children suffer for as long as you have. I know the pain of barying (not sure of the spelling) a child and I would not wish it on anyone. Your strength is amazing! I hope and pray that you will have a long and happy life with Layla, and that she will grow up to get married and have her own children. Sadly I am now praying for her healing, in what ever way God has planned! I have checked this blog at least 6 times today, hoping to hear some good news. I will continue to keep your family and Layla in my heart and in my prayers! I have a two and a half year old daughter now and she reminds me so much of your explanation of Layla, when I read your story last night I wanted to wake her up and hold her all night! I will be praying for a miracle and hope that it happens for you and your family! Much love and love peace for Layla and the rest of your family!
Okay it came quick sounded terrible. I just mean that they were born early and just were not ready to stay with us long. Each of them were only here for a couple of hours. I know that they are n heaven waiting for us and I think that when God decides to take Layla maybe they will be some of the angels that welcome her home! Again your family is in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you all find some peace in these next coming days, weeks, months, and years. I am sorry that you have to go through something lke this, but your strength and persiverence had given me some nre found strenght that I thought I lost so thanks you and God bless to y ou and Layla!
Thank you for sharing such a beautiful insight at such a difficult time. As mothers, we have all been in that place of feeling overworked and overwhelmed. When faced with a hardship like yours, you wish for an easy day like that. Thank you for sharing your beautiful child and her life with the rest of the world. God bless you and your entire family in this time. And thank you to Layla for gracing this earth with her presence for as long as she’s here
The Lord has not forgotten you and will carry you through your difficult journey, both now and when precious Layla returns to Him. He has chosen you to be her family for reasons that will become clear to you in his own time. “And the Lord, he it is that doth go before thee; he will be with thee, he will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed.” (Deut 31:8)
I came across your story on Facebook, and I cried as I read it. I just wanted to say how beautiful your little Layla is…and how special she is…and how special her family must be. I’ve always thought that God gives “special” children to special people….He knows you and how amazing you are. Please know that Layla and her family are in my thoughts, heart and prayers every day. God bless you ALWAYS and IN ALL WAYS.
God bless you and your family.
Good Luck and Gods Blessing for Dear Little Layla and Her Family!
My heart breaks for you and your family. Your little girl is a beautiful, beautiful gift from God. It is so easy to get caught up in the daily tasks of life that you fail to enjoy the interruptions of children. I have been doing that lately. I will never again wish that my son would go back to sleep when he wakes up at 4:30 AM for cuddles. Thank you for teaching me that lesson.
You don’t know me……and I don’t know you. I just stumbled across your blog tonight after finding “The Never Ending Story” for the first time.
I am so so sad for you all. You have moved me to tears. Thank you for sharing your strength and wisdom through what must be the most unbearable time for your family and your precious baby girl.
Please know that you are all in my thoughts, from this day forward…even though we might be strangers.
I have a 3 year old and 21 month old. I complain every day how tired I am, how nothing gets done and how demanding they are. After reading this I cannot stop crying, I am so sorry for what your darling family is going through. I adore my children, but you have made me see the treasure in these years, and that I need to be grateful for every moment I have. Thank you for your honesty. Bless you precious Layla and those that love you. X
You have been on my heart for days, weeks. Then I read this, and it has forever changed me.
Layla Grace. I speak her name a hundred times a day and squeeze my eyes shut at the pain. To welcome my children underfoot, to welcome the interruptions, the mess…
You all are in my prayers. Oh, may He hold you close.
Your precious Layla Grace is beautiful. My heart goes out to you and your family. I read your blog and was struck by your amazing strength. I pray that Layla is comforted and without pain. God bless you! May his light shine on you and keep you strong.
I read your posts sobbing as my 10 month old bby girl tugged at my shirtail and was reaching for me. This was a huge reminder to me to stop wasting so much time worrying about the chores and each day’s to-do list. Each child is a blessing , each day is a gift! Thank you for sharing your family’s story. May God’s comfort and peace be with each of you.
Cottage Hill Farm will donate 10% for all orders, to help with medical bills. Still praying! LaVerne
I saw this link on a friend’s facebook page and I am in tears. This blog has helped me in remembering that life is precious and to enjoy every moment we have with our children. I am guilty of wishing for peace and quiet every once in awhile to get things done. I will no longer wish and ask for that. I pray that God embraces your family through this time. I believe that God a plan for her. I believe she has touched so many lives through this, mine as well. May God Bless you and your family. There is definitely going to be a party in Heaven when Miss Layla Grace goes home!
To Layla, Jenna, Claire, mom and dad –
I don’t know you, but I cannot stop thinking about all of you. I’ve done a lot of praying and crying since I learned about Layla’s situation. I’m praying for a miracle, as I know you are. But I’m also praying for peace. And lastly, I’m praying that you feel surrounded by love.
What a mystery this life is…but hopefully you’re able to see even a glimmer of the fact that God has a plan, and He has SPECIAL plans for precious Layla. Those plans may not allow as much time on this earth as we would like with her, but He has something much greater planned for her.
Sending hugs, love, support and so much more to you from many miles away…and hoping you feel every bit of it.
Kim
North Carolina
She is truly amazing! God love her. Tons of hugs to your family.
We are from Spokane WA. Our family here prays daily for her, and your family. Please give her a kiss from us. She sure opened my eyes! Every waking moment with my child is precious. I have a 21,25 and 3yr old. I make it a point to talk to my older babies too. EVERY DAY! XOXOXOXO
You have an amazing child. I still pray for a miracle for her cancer to be taken away, however if that is not God’s plan, then I ask for peace and comfort to be upon all of you.
Shanna, Thank you so much for your words…..I will never take for granted any times with my boys. I am still praying for Layla Grace and your family….. She has touched our lives in ways that I can’t even explain. What a true gift from God!!!
PS. I hope Layla enjoyed her Valentine’s from my boys.
I just was told about your sweet daughter Layla.What an amazing child she is.I am so sorry she is so sick.Cancer is such a ugly word.I have had cancer twice now.And the last time i had to have chemo to beat it.I am in tears and my heart is braking for you all.May God hold you all close to him and keep Layla pain free.I am also praying for a big healing in Layla.Please know you all are in my heart and i will keep praying for your sweet daughter Layla.And your family too.God bless you all and give you strength to do whatever you may need to do.I am sening you so many loving hugs to you all.
Since meeting your amazing family through this blog, I have not stopped praying for you all. I can’t even begin to imagine what you have been going through or the road you are about to face ahead! May God’s peace that passes all understanding get you through the days, weeks, months and years that lay ahead! Your little Layla is for certain not scared of what is to come and it is only we who are left here on earth that have to deal with the heart break, when our loved ones go before us, until the glorious day when our Lord brings us together again, until then He will hold all the little ones for us! I praise our amazing strength and will continue to pray for you, Layla, her sister and daddy!
Love in Christ!
My thoughts and prayers are with you, Layla Grace, and your family today and always.
Lifting you, your family, and your Layla up in prayer this evening.
Shanna,
Your strength is incredible. Thank you for sharing your story. I will hold my little boy a little closer because of it. I am praying for Layla Grace to find peace and rest comfortably. I pray for you and your family to find peace as well. God Bless.
Keeping you all in my thoughts
Shanna and Ryan,
As I get ready to go to bed tonight, I find myself reflecting on these last couple of days. I just recently have been Blessed with learning of Layla and your Family, and I say that with everything I have. I will never again wish for my daughter to take her nap so that I can empty the dishwasher in peace, I will never again take for granted those well check up’s at the pediatrition’s office, I will never again wonder why I never get a break………I am forever changed and am awe inspired by your entire family.
I have prayed harder than I’ve prayed in the last 20 years these last 2 days…I’ve asked for every person that I know thru the internet to pray and join in on the facebook prayer vigil for Layla Grace…………I pray that when I get up in the morning that there is an entry saying that Layla Grace had a peaceful night with Mommy and Daddy by her side, I pray that God gives us the miracle that we are ALL PRAYING FOR….to heal this baby here on earth!
Much love and prayer
Lisa
Boston MA
I’m praying for Layla and the family! I’m so sad! My heart is so heavy! Please let us know what we can do!!! I don’t know what else to say! I wanna hug you all especially Layla!!!
Please know me and my family are thinking of Layla, you and your family! GOD Bless!!!
Hugs!!!
Claudette
My prayers are sooo with you. I pray the peace, encouragement & strength of your family not just for now, but over the years to come. May there not be a void in your hearts when Layla transitions. And may the Lord provide continuous comfort when you feel your heart is just breaking. May your spirits be at will to grieve in the presence of the Lord. In Jesus Name. Amen.
Your beautiful little girl is such a gift to the world. Her story is heart breaking, but I hope it helps us all to hold our little ones a little tighter. Remember that where there is life there is hope though. Don’t give up faith, even now.
So sorry for the trial set before you and your sweet baby girl. We’re praying for you and for her and the rest of your family. May the grace of Christ bring you comfort in the midst of such horrible pain.
Blessings,
Julie
in VA
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Shanna and Ryan
My thoughts and Prays are with you in this time of need..She is a beautilful little girl…I pray for you and Layla Grace My thought will be with you always. I will pray for a miracle because I belive they are out there and they do work..God Bless you and your family
Leilani
CT
I thought back to this posting today as I was dreading the thought of going to the store with my 3 year old son and 14 month old daughter. And I thought, what you wouldn’t give to go shopping with your three beautiful daughters. And as I bought some summer clothes for my daughter I thought, what you wouldn’t give to be buying summer clothes for Layla. Your family is constantly in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you are in some small way able to take comfort in the fact that you have changed the way I and so many others will parent from now on. I will pray that Layla and you find peace.
I just learned of your family’s story and strength today. Like others who have commented, I have had your thoughts asking “for a moment’s peace” and joke with my family that one day, “my kids will be grown and my house will be clean.” In addition, thank you for sharing your story… it reminds all parents to continue to be an advocate for your child’s health. I know you will treasure every moment with your beautiful family, and with Layla Grace. I will pray for you all that God’s hands will hold you and be with you.
Reading these blogs, I just want to leave work, in the middle of the day, go wake her (my 2 1/2 yo) from nap at school, and just hold my sweet baby girl. Thank you for making us all a little more appreciative……………….I only wish I could give you the same blessing I have. A healthy baby girl. I am so sorry for you all.
(((((((Layla)))))))
With all my love,
Wow Layla is so beautiful! Heaven will be truly lucky to get that little angel.
I’m praying for peace for all of you.
Shanna, I could barely get through this post, I am absolutely spoiled to having healthy kids and am more annoyed at times than thankful as I should be (if that makes any sense)….You are being used in ways that you will never know this side of heaven. I am printing this post to put on my refrigerater to be thankful for the “help” and interuptions and rough housing that goes on here. You are truly a rock. You and your princess are in my heart and prayers. Thank you for reminding me of how blessed I am and how my attitude should be.
Your little girl is absolutely beautiful! Many prayers to her and your family! HUGS!
I just read a couple of your updates through a friend on facebook. I want you to know that you and your precious baby girl are in my thoughts. I lost a very young son and my heart simply hurts for you. Wishing all of you peace and lots and lots of love. Warmest,
I am so inspired by your faith and courage. Thank you for reminding us to be thankful and enjoy every minute our children are in this world. Thank you for letting God use you to demonstrate how important faith is. I have always heard “Don’t waste a hurt”. You are hurting so much now and you are using it to glorify God. I know you are a wittness to all that are following your story. I pray for your sweet girl to get her miracle. I know what it is like to move into and adjust to living in a “new season” of life. It is hard to be there without all the people you love but there is more comfort and grace than you can imagine. His grace truly is sufficient for our need. He gives us just the amount we need to make it through each day. Somedays it seems like it’s not where I want to be but it is where God had led and that tells me it is where I should be. Please know your family is being lifted up in prayer.
I am bawling and in awe of your story. I wanted to share something with you and hope it makes you feel a little more at ease.
I was a CNA for a hospice company and have been in the room when people were about to pass on. I just have to say that there is truly something peaceful and Godly when someone drift into their final “sleep”. you can FEEL God in the air as he gently takes them into his care. My heart aches for you and your family but I hope you can find peace and comfort knowing that your daughter will no longer be in pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you all- God bless!
i found your story from a friends post on facebook. i to put a post up about Layla pleeding for people to pray for her. when i saw your story it really touched my heart and drew tears from my eyes, and i believe with the power of prayer she can be rid of cancer, it is not to late. i have been on the phone calling people i know and telling them her story and asking them to pray for her and to pass her story on to others to do the same. i have four children of my own ages 12, 9, 6 and 2 and they to wanted to hear her story, so i read it to them and they got tears in their eyes and gathered together to pray for her. i am going to continue praying for layla and keep spreading the word to everyone so she will be cured of cancer for good. she is such a beautiful little girl with a beautiful smile.
A friend sent me a link to your blog (I am a fellow blogger…have a private blog), and asked me to pray. She asked me to hug my kids a little tighter today, much as you have reminded me here.
Layla is just beautiful. I will pray for peace, and comfort, and strength for all of you. I do believe that children have a special place with God in heaven, and I pray that Layla finds her way easily and that her love will live on in your family (I know it will.)
I discovered the story about sweet baby Layla last night through a mutual friend on Facebook. I spent most of the night reading about the journey little Layla and her family have been through. I was touched deeply and couldn’t help but cry and immediately hope and pray that sweet Layla wins this battle with cancer. I couldn’t imagine what all of you are thinking and going through. Nobody deserves to have to fight cancer especially a sweet innocent little girl like Layla. My heart breaks because while reading this blog I seen how everything was going great only for you to be told that her battle was not yet over. I pray that a miracle happens and she gets better, she doesn’t deserve any of this. As a mother myself I couldn’t begin to imagine what you are going through no mother should have to worry about losing a child. I admire your strength and courage because it takes one hell of a person to be able to make it through what you all have.
I will keep Layla in my thoughts and prayers, I even requested that she be added into the prayer circle at my great grandparents church I figured it couldn’t hurt for even more people to pray that Layla pulls through all of this and gets to go home and live the rest of her life. I will continue to follow the story and pray for Layla.
God bless you all, your in our thoughts and prayers.
i just wanted to let u know we are still praying for your little Layla Grace. i have been on the phone with alot of people telling them her story and asking them to pray for her. i just spoke to my mother n law in arkansas and she is going to put in a prayer request for her tomorrow at church and i also spoke to my aunt and she is going to do the same. i also stayed up for 2 hours last night before bed praying for her, and my husband and kids also continue to pray as well. plz keep us updated on baby Layla Grace. Matthew 18:19 Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them.”
still praying for your sweet Layla and your family. My 11 year old daughter was so touched by your blog that she set up a Pray for Layla fan page on FB. Lots more prayers headed Layla’s way.
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Pray-for-Layla/327181156670?v=wall&ref=ts#!/pages/Pray-for-Layla/327181156670?ref=ts
As the mother of a 2 year old little boy, I sit here reading your story with a river of tears streaming down my face. My heart aches for you and your family. You are an amazing mother and Layla Grace is so blessed to have you. Your words have truly put life into perspective for me. I want nothing more than to wake my little boy, who’s sleeping on the couch, and hold him right now. I don’t think I’ll ever unload the dishwasher, cook, or do laundry the same ever again…..thank you for that!
My prayers will continue to flow.
I am so touched by Layla Grace. I am so sorry for all your suffering. It breaks my heart so bad to know she is suffering.
I lost a baby that was only 2 days old. I thought I would never survive. But I know now God spared me from all the pain we could have experienced. His heart was never fully delveloped and would have never survived. I don’t know how you get the streingth but somehow you do.
I love the pictures.! The one of your husband with Layla laying on his shoudier is so precious. I can’t stop crying. I just wish so badly a miracle would happen and she wouldn’t have to leave you. I know she will be with God. I know she will be his precious little angel! I just wish she could have spent more time with your family. I will never forget your beautiful Layla Grace!
I have and am praying for Layla, you, your husband and your children.
I am so sorry you have to endure this.
I cannot imagine your pain.
I am a mother of 3 and your post has helped me not to take my children for granted and to love my children being under my feet.
Every time now that my children are frustrating me, I will think of you and Layla and love them more.
As you would already know, God’s plan is perfect…but that doesn’t make it easier to understand or accept.
I wish I could bare some of your pain.
I can pray for you all, and that is what I am doing.
I am so so so sorry.
May God carry you through this.
God bless,
Gina
Layla has been an inspiration to my life! I’ve read your blogs and at times would read them over and over again and I’m
speechless and how you as a mother going through all this still somehow manages to keep your faith and a good heart! You and Layla are forever going to my heroes and now I make sure that I tell my only daughter Kayla how much I love her and when she is at my feet not letting me finish my chores instead of getting frustrated I revert back to your blogs and remember what is most and valuable in my life. My prayers go out to Layla and all her that love her. God bless
My heart breaks and tears fall endlessly while reading your story, sHE IS A BEAUTIFUL ANGEL, I know god sent her and takes her back so quickly for a purpose, she has angels with her and they never leave her side. But I know the hearts of her parents can’t bear to understand why this sweet sunshine must leave them , how can you understand why this deep pain must be gone through. I believe that she will never leave you and has suffered in cause to better the lives of others, a very strong advanced spirt to accept such a mission. I don’t know why but my prayers are with that sweet baby girl, and they will be with her parents long after she is safe a blissful back in god’s light,but I will pray for the one’s she leaves behind, that through the pain they can see the beauty and purpose that Layla has come here to bring you, and I know you will always be together and always have been, and will all reunite again. I will never recent not having enough time to sleep or get things done..my kids are more important..thank you Layla sweet baby girl..soo brave and god bless you and your parents. Your light has reached us all!
Today is the first time I have read about your sweet Layla. A fellow mommy friend shared your link. Layla’s legacy has already begun through your blogging about a mother’s journey through uncharted waters. This post (and many others before it I assume) will make us all better and more patient mothers. It’s so hard to understand what God’s plan is when he calls home children so young. It’s just not fair to be given such a short amount of time with Layla, is it? I’m praying for comfort for Layla and peace for you and the rest of your family. May God hold you all close when he’s ready to hold Layla closer.
Shanna,
I have been reading your blogs for the past 3 days after my daughter told me about your precious little Layla. My heart goes out to you and your family. I lift you and your family up in prayer and ask that the Lord keep his loving arms wrapped around you. My prayer is that he keep your precious Layla peaceful and pain free. I am awed at your strength and your faith. You all have touched so many lives and have made many people to stop and enjoy every moment with their loved ones. Thank you for sharing your story with so many people. Love to your precious little angel, Layla.
My heart is aching for your familly. Someday we will have all of the answeres as the Lord reveals everything to us. Until that time comes, and as hard as it is, we must take comfort in knowing He is greater than us and you will be with your precious Layla again. Her pain will be gone. God Bless You.
Your family seems to be part of my family. I have grown children and we are all following Layla’s journey. Your tweets and blogs have changed the way we look at each other and life. You are such a strong family and wonderful parents. Please know that we think of you every day and say many prayers for all of you.
LOVE AND HUGS TO YOUR WHOLE FAMILY. PLEASE DON’T LET LITTLE LAYLA GO LIKE THIS. HELP HER LORD, COMFORT HER, EASE HER PAIN, EASE THE WHOLE FAMILIES PAIN. I PRAY MORE THEN YOU’LL EVER KNOW. YOUR FAMILY MEANS THE WORLD TO ME. LAYLA DOES NOT DESERVE TO GO LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’M SO ANGRY. HELP HER! SHE IS ON MY MIND CONSTANTLY. THIS LATEST UPDATE TORE ME TO PIECES. I KNOW YOUR NOT THAT STRONG, YOUR HUMAN. LOVE YOUR FAMILY SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. PLEASE GIVE THEM PEACE SOON. THEY DON’T NEED THIS ANYMORE.
Layla is absolutely beautiful! My thoughts and prayers are with her. I pray that God is with you and your husband too.
Shanna and Ryan,
I am praying that God will continue to give you strength and comfort through this difficult time. Your faith and love for Christ is so visable. To loose a child is something one can not imagine and you have continued to glorify Him! Your family has been such an awesome witness for Him.
I am praying for your beautiful family.
I am so sorry for what your family is going threw you have very precious girls I couldn’t even get threw reading your story without having to stop to wipe my eyes so that I could see to read some more…… I have a 15 month old little girl and your story really made me realize that tomorrow isn’t promised and that I need to to spend every second with her that I can……. your familey is in my thoughts and prayers May God Bless You and be with you and your familey threw this hard time in your life
I’ve only learned of your tragedy tonight, but it makes me heartsick to think about. I can only imagine how terrific your pain is right now. AND MY PRAYER IS ONLY ONE MORE, NOT SAYING IT ISN’T IMPORTANT BUT AFTER A FREINDS tragic death this statement made me understand a little better. We all know that everything on this earth is part of God’s plan…..God knew Layla Grace before she was ever conceived, and He knew that He was only going to put her on on this earth for these few days. If He could’ve warned you from the beginning He would’ve said ‘You can have her and love her only for a short while because I need for her to come home to me while she’s still a baby. Hope you get the comfort from that that I did. I pray for her, her mother, her sisters but it seems like the daddy always gets forgotten. How hard do you think it is for him to be strong and he can’t show his feelings for the others?
In Jesus’ Name,
GOD IS LIGHT AND IN GOD THERE IS NO DARKNESS AT ALL. SO
ALL MIGHTY GOD I THANK YOU FOR THIS FAMILY AND I LIFT THEM UP TO YOU IN THE NAME OF YOUR SON CHRIST JESUS AMEN.
I learned of your story yesterday on Facebook through a friend of mine. I am amazed at your strength as a family. I just wanted you to know that I am saying prayers for you and your family. Randomly this morning at 5am, I woke up and felt God’s presence and said a prayer for Layla. May God be with you every step of the way and continue to give you strength. God Bless you!
Bethany
I’ve been following your story for about a month and have been totally blown away. As a family, we pray for your entire family every day. My little girl (7) mentions Layla Grace by name in her own prayer time each night (no prompting from the studio audience). I understand you don’t think your doing anything special – but your willingness to be transparent – to live your life and faith so openly is what has fueled the whole “Layla Grace phenomenon”. By choosing openness, you have touched countless thousands (you were great on Ryan Seacrest’s show – couldn’t tell you were about to cry).
It is an outrage that there is a simple test for this that isn’t being used. Most parents don’t know what Neuroblastoma is or what its symptoms look like. I pray that Ryan Seacrest is only the beginning of the story – that Layla Grace can spread the word and touch the world. I would love to see you on Oprah or Dr. Oz because they would be excellent educational platforms.
Even if you never get another second of air-time, Layla’s story will live on in the lives you have touched. She will NOT be forgotten.
Just know you all have been in my thoughts and prayers. Be strong and of good courage. do not be afraid nor be dismayed for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Peace that surpasses all understanding. You are all amazingly in Faith and pleasing to God. Glory to God is your Victory.
I am praying from Brasil to you little angel.
God bless all – Love
I just wanted to let you know that I cannot stop thinking about Layla and your family! I have shed so many tears and cannot seem to control myself with my emotions about this! I do have probably a really stupid question, is there any chance at all, any, that a miracle could happen and she could wake up tomorrow and be healed? Or not even healed, but better and could get back on chemo and beat this horrible disease? Or is it too late for this? I pray every night for her to have a painfree and peaceful night and for most of all for her to wake up and be healed. Has a child with this disease ever been cured or healed when they were at the same point as layla? Or is it just all about making her comfortable right now and no chance of recovery? I am just so heartstricken! I hug my two girls a little tighter and no longer complain to myself when they will not nap or want to help mommy with household chores. I have to say that Layla has changed my life as well as my familys! God Bless you all and you are always in my thoughts and prayers every minute of every day!
Please know that Sweet Layla Grace and your family are in mine and my family’s prayers. Your story has truly touched my heart. We came very close to losing our four year old this past summer due to medical negligence. It was touch and go with her for a while, so I do understand some of the fear and anxiety you have, as well as the strength you have. I check this blog and twitter several times a say. My heart is breaking for you. My motto through what we went through was ,”If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it.” My heart goes out to you and we will be praying without ceasing. God Bless all of you!!! Love, The Johnsons
I came across a link to your blog on a New Zealand parenting site and have since been following you on twitter. Your story broke my heart and I cannot stop the tears each time I check the blog. I lost a younger brother to cancer many years ago and I just couldn’t imagine going through that with my own daughter. I admire your courage and strength. The photos are amazing, what wonderful memories were created that day!
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My thoughts and prayers are with you all. Kia kaha (that means stay strong in Maori
A friend of mine told me Layla’s story about a month ago and I have been following it since. Today’s post really hit home….I too have wished for the ability to do things without kids under my feet or the ability to finish something I have started, for the dvd to capture their attention long enough to do something. As I finished reading today, i went into my sons room and then my daughters and kissed them both, told them I loved them, and then apologized.
Although I have never met Layla or your family, I feel as though I know you. My heart hurts so completely and I wish and pray that I could do something to help you all. Layla is an incredible little girl whose strength is truely immeasureable. Her story will have a permanent place in my heart. My hope and prayers for all of you today and everyday.
Congrats on the poop! I know she must feel so much better….I’m rejoicing with you!
I’ve shed many tears reading your blog. What a beautiful and strong little girl you have. Praying for you all, especially little Layla. May she find peace and comfort whatever her fate. This evening I gave a sigh of relief when I put my baby girl to bed because I finally had “me time”. I then came across your story and felt so guilty for feeling that way – I shall cherish every moment I have with my baby girl. Thank you for making me realize just how precious every minute is. God Bless, keep strong.
I am so sorry about your daugter layla Grace. Now I may be only 12 but, i know a lot about this stuff. I just wanted to let you know that My whole family is praying for Layla Grace. I wanted to let you know that if she dies she’ll be in a better place.Hopefully god will make her better when she is still alive and with us. Look on the bright side she’ll never have to worry about any pain every again,
I am sorry about your daughter. I could never imagine having a daughter like this.
To the parents of Layla Grace I’m sorry about your Daughter. I just wanted to let you know that my whole family is praying for little layla Garce. I also wanted to let you know that
I have been following your updates since a mutual friend told me about her. I have told others who have been praying as well..Her story has touched me in so many ways and I keep praying and asking God to heal her. I was excited to see the good updates today. We will continue believing, praying, and fighting with you for her life. She is so precious..
My heart goes out to you. I couldn’t read your post without tears running down my face as I read this to my husband. You are great parents and GOD be with you and Layla. I will prayer for peace and comfort in this time.
God bless ur family I pray for her and ur family every night. I hope she can still fight this monster . God bless u all.…
I have been trying for over an hour to write. I’m new to facebook. My heart and prayers go out to each of you. I feel your pain. I know. My daughter went home to be with the Lord last year. She was 28. She is today, still , a mother, wife, sister and friend. No matter how big our children get; they are still our babies. She too suffered for several years, but gained ultimate healing the day after her birthday. You are such a beautiful family. I just pray for pain relief for this precious child. Please Lord Jesus. May you feel the prayers and God’s Grace and Peace. I am a Hospice RN; I will pray that a medication will come to the physician’s mind; also tylenol/ibuprofen can enhance a narcotic; maybe something that could help her relax would help her rest. In passing, it’s not always peaceful for the Child of God. I don’t understand why; I just know God is there and He cares. Again, will keep praying for her peace. You have this moment, one hour, one day at a time. Maybe Jesus will come back tonight. Love and prayers for each of you. In Christ, Connie
I have 2 kids theirs no words. to explain or even think how big is ur sorrow and u r so strong I admired u and ur family be strong is hard and I will pray for u everyday I’m so sorry
May God bless you all. I have prayed and prayed for all of your family. It really makes you think twice about life and daily activities. You have many people you don’t even know, praying.
I am praying for your peace and comfort at this time. May God bless you all.
Layla is such a brave little angel … and, I’m sure her strength and precious personality is blessing the rest of the family. Enjoy every precious second with her and surround her with love, as you are. This is a family illness to cope with, lessons will be learned through Layla’s condition, and I’m sure there have been many blessings nestled in and amongst each of you as you’ve shared the journey with Layla. The good Lord will provide guidance and comfort to each of you, perhaps in different ways. During whatever precious time you have, it’s important to laugh together, cry together, sing together, and, take time to just enjoy quiet times together as you all silently reflect. May God bless you all and keep Layla comfortable as possible. Much love to you all as I keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Just thought I would send this peom out to you all, I am pretty sure you have heard it. It was given to me after I lost my father to cancer 3 yrs. ago, he was diagnosed and 6 weeks later, he lost his battle and i wish someone would have shared this poem with me before, it is so true!!!
” If Tomrrow Never Comes”
If I knew it would be the last time
that I’d see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly,
and pray the Lord your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I’d see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss,
and call you back for just one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I’d hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would tape each word and action,
and play them back throughout my days
If I knew it would be the last time,
I would spare an extra minute or two,
To stop and say “I love you,”
instead of assuming you know I do.
So, just in case tomorrow never comes,
and today is all I get,
I’d like to say how much I love you,
and I hope we never will forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.
So, if you’re waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you’ll surely regret the day
That you didn’t take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
And you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
That you love them very much,
and you’ll always hold them dear.
Take time to say
“I’m sorry,” “Please forgive me,” “thank you” or “it’s okay”.
And if tomorrow never comes,
you’ll have no regrets about today.
After reading your post about your regrets, you have opened my eyes and made me so aware of how ungrateful and unappreciative I have been of my little ones being under my feet, playing, and wanting to help me with things. I have taken so much for granted with my children. I want to thank you for that. I pray for you, sweet Layla, and your family every day and every night. I pray that God gives you strength and that Layla will finally have peace as she goes with the Lord. She is such a sweet angel baby. God Bless.
My heart goes out to you and your family. I set by my sisters bed 4 years ago while she battled breast cancer at the age of 32. She lost her battle after a year and a half. That was the hardest thing I have ever watched in my life. I cannot imagine going through it with one of my children. I know you don’t always feel strong, but you are!!! She is so precious and you are all an inspiration to all of us. Hug and kiss her sisters for me. My heart bleeds for them. My thoughts and prayers are with you always!!!
To Layla and her family,
Words cannot express the sadness and grief that fills my heart reading your story. Layla I am so sorry this fallen world has been so unkind to your body. It is obvious from your families blog your parents love and take care of all of their children. We are devastated witnesses of your short life here on earth. Many of us would gladly accept some of your pain and pray this would put sparkles in your eyes and a few precious hours for your family to share together as your angel birthday arrives. We are not ready for you to leave us. We want to hear your name said by your family with happiness, proudness, with laughter, with frustration and with anger, because that would mean you are still here with your mom and dad and sisters. From afar I will celebrate your are still apart of our earthly world.
Please know I will pray for your family as they survive your Angel birthday and the painful road of grief that follows. I will pray for your sisters and for your Mommy and Daddy during this time. If I ever happen to cross your families path I promise to ask if they would be willing to share a story about you so we can celebrate your life together and to give them an opportunity to say your name. I know how much they will miss saying your name as I miss saying my own daughters name.
Sending courage and strength when you need it most.
Tawny Elizondo
Your family is beautiful. All three of you children are adorable. My thoughts and prayers are with Layla and her family and I am sorry that such a wonderful family has to go through such a tragedy. I have done some, but not much, work to help find a cure and fight through such an awful disease that so many innocent people of the world have to go through. Your daughter is beautiful and i am sure, when she gets over this disease, she will go very far in life. Along with your other two children. I hope all goes well.
In Memory
Angels gathered round that day as they listened for Gods voice
Awaiting here beside me for to bring me to His throne
For in life I gave my self to Him …..that was my choice
And never did there come a time when I felt I was alone
Now I stand in Heaven, so close here to His side
And know that there are tears for me and hurting deep inside
God knows how you long for me and of every tear you’ve cried
And His love reaches out for you to pull you to His side
Every moment there with you was carried in my heart
And never once forgotten, never once cast aside
And until that day will come when we no longer are apart
I know that God is there for you,His love will be your guide
Remember me in love each day as we wait to meet again
Knowing all your love for me, I held so closely til the end
And now it’s carried with me for in my heart has always been
Angels gather round you now to comfort through Gods’ touch
I know that He’ll hold you close and soon the pain there will subside
Just know that I too am with you for I love you so much
In spirit I am with you,for there in your hearts my love will forever abide
Written by inspiration
of the
Lord Jesus Christ
by the hand of
Loretta McInvale Sherman
October 16, 2005
That was in memory of all our loved ones in Heaven –
As parents of two boys, we would like to extend our immediate prayers to you and Layla. We believe wholeheartedly in miracles and will be praying for not only that, but for your entire family as well. Also, thank you for the gift that you are giving many people and that is the gift of sharing your story, even though it has to be very hard. I haven’t cryed this hard for awhile. God bless you and GOD BLESS LAYLA!
mckenzie says: What a strong little girl you have. I wanted to tell u that i hope god blesses her. I have a realy great feeling that god is going to
bless her and she won’t have hardly any more pain. I have spent the last 15 minutes reading her blog. I know that bad things could happen but
Be possitive and that will help a lot. I hope that a miracle happens for little sweet Layla. I totaly hope that god helps her. I realy don’t know her but I feel so bad. I wish it was meh instead of her. She is so small and so sweet. Im so surw that layla will grow up to be a beautiful little girl.
I wanted you and your family to know that I am praying for you all, and so are thousands of other people. I cannot imagine how hard it is for you to watch a child slip away. I took care of my father in his last months with cancer and thought that I had prepared myself enough, but I don’t think that you ever can, it was the hardest thing for me. Everyone at the funeral would say to me “at least he is not in pain anymore”, I knew that, but I just wanted him back! I don’t take anything for granted like I used to. I cry for Layla, she is so little, but I also cry for you and your other children.
I have been in prayer since i have heard of you’re little girl. I thanked God to be able to pray with out ceasing. I find myself praying all the time. When i’m on the bus when i’m in the car. All the time. Today I want to say : His people say Yes and Amen! I also had a lil bit of a bother with the news report. I like that it raised awareness and funds! That is how i fount the news report because i was thinking you must be in financial crisis. What bothered me is ye of so little faith. I want to run screaming DO YOU KNOW WHO MY GOD IS??? I know who my God is. He is the Almighty. He is the All Knowing. He is the Healer. He is the Beginning and the End. How dare you put a date on His creation! How dare you say this is how long Layla has to live! How dare you take that little girl’s life into your hand. I really feel like that His word today is JOY!!! There always has to be a morning. I don’t know if you read this but tomorrow please take your little girl rather with her or around her and do something JOYFULL!!! happy song. MY REEDEMER LIVES!! My God is alive and powerful and no man nor stronghold can come againts Him. Faith is very tricky. we all want to believe and i know its not if He can do it is will He do it. And you know I don’t know what His plans are for this little girl, but i know she is definately something special to the kingdom of God. Dear Jesus, I thank You for Your blessings. I thank You for Your peace. I praise You. We give You the Glory. I ask that You continue moving in a powerful way. I love You. I thank You for Your joy. I thank You for the trials that bring us ever so closer to You. We know that You are here. We know that You are alive and moving in and around us. I thank You for Your presence. I thank You for Your overwhelming Love. Lord I just want to praise You. Lord I ask for Your healing. You said to knock and the door will be open. I am knocking at Your door and I know so many people are laying at Your feet for this little girl. I ask that You put Your hand on this little girl. I bind every fear. I bind every doubt. I bind every thought that is not of You. I love You and I praise You. In Jesus Name AMEN.
I am a fellow Langham Creek class of 99 alumni and I just wanted to let you know how much your family has touched us and changed us. Reading your story about regrets was so inspiring and has made me and my family so much closer together. I have a family of five as well and we are in awe of how strong you guys are. Your story has struck close to me because this could have easily been us. We are the same age with three children. We also have a two year old who has never slept in our bed until we started following your story. Now she sleeps with us every night. We cherish every moment with our kids now and we have Layla to thank for that. I used to yell at my kids a lot for little things that don’t have any importance in the grand scheme of things and I stop myself now. We pray for Layla everyday and I tell everyone I meet her story. God bless you and your family!!
Amanda
It absolutely broke my heart when i read this. A friend of mine sent a text last night asking me to pray for layla. I replied this morning with who is she and she pointed me to your website.
Miracles do happen, 5 years ago my nephew Bassam Haddad was 1 year old. He fell into the pool drowned and died. 10 minutes after his heart stopped beating he was revived. He is home with us now with brain damage. We still hold prayers for him and have faith god will bring him back to his normal self. It’s better to have him in our arms then to had lost him, keep the prayers up layla will expierence a mirace just like bassam will some day!
Wishing you peace and comfort today Layla.
She is a child of God, and he will put his hands on her. You amaze me to have the faith you do. And I believe that you have also made her feel it too. I will put you in my prayers.
I am praying for you and Layla. May God bless you and your family.
I agree JENNIE!!!! w/ some of ur comments on ur post made on march 3rd @ 12:30
I could not have said it better myself….I hear talk as if she has already passed away. That is not how I was taught faith works. Faith is truly believing in a miracle w/out any evidence being seen no matter what any man says like the bible verse says Faith is the substance of things hoped for w/out the evidence of things seen. I almost melt when I hear last days or predictions on her last day here on this earth or when I have heard inpending death, suggestions that she won’t be here or it is what it is.. only God knows… we are to proclaim faith, hope, love, life,healing and belief in Christ Jesus as we r his children. Then after truly relying on that… if that is what Gods plan is then his will be done… then except it but don’t except death before it’s truly here no matter what it looks like I have seen and heard of toomany miracles. put all trust and faith and lean not on our own understanding believe in what is not seen, now that is faith and I pray that after everthing the Marsh family has been through that their faith and energy will be renewed and Layla Grace be renewed i pray endlessly for Layla to be healed and her family for their to be peace and comfort for Layla Grace Marsh! God Bless u Marsh family! I know I don’t know you but I feel great love 4 ur family in Christ
You and your family must be very brave and strong to go through such a hard time. Layla is in our prayers and we will participate in her battle figting cancer. My family is praying for you and my class checks up on your website every day for changes in layla’s life. God be with you and Layla.
My prayers are being stated as I type this note to you. Although I do not know you I want to say that you are a very curageous mother and family to endure such pain. I am not sure I could do what you have, my heart has been touched in such a way that I am sure it will not be again. For Layla I pray that God takes her quickly so that she will not have to suffer anylonger, and I pray that the family will not have to endure more suffering. She is a beautiful child and once she is in heaven she willl not remember the siffuring.
Thank you so much for your blogs.
That poor angel.
I know its hard.
Stay strong
My heart goes out to Layla Grace and you all. I sit hear and hope things are going towards that miracle that I have been asking for. Know you are not alone during this process and there are a few of us out here who know and understand this process. It is a horrible process and I can’t but wonder why politicians haven’t acted on the requests for research funds for childhood cancers. The only politician I know that has responded and tried to get funds through Congress is Michael McCaul. To all the other politicians out there “SHAME ON YOU” for not paying attention to these needs/requests and taking action to help these seriously ill children. They are our little helpless lambs. I feel we need to start with our children’s needs and work forward. They are our future.
I have been following little Layla’s progress from the first time I heard about her (last Spring) until now. My prayers are with your family as you go through this nightmare. My tears have fallen freely and frequently as I’ve read your posts. Layla is a beautiful child, as her her sisters. As a couple you are an inspiration to everyone. I don’t know that I could survive what you are going through and certainly not with the courage and faith that you are showing. God bless this child as she makes her journey home – I wish I could take some of the pain for you, but know that I, my husband and so, so many others are sharing this pain with you and crying tears for you – tears that you must, at times, hold in for Layla and your other girls.
I am so sorry for you and your family!!! Very heart wrenching…My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!! Stay strong and keep praying GOD does listen!!
I’m sorry to hear about your precious baby, I will be praying for her every single day.. Stay strong, and know alot of people are praying for her…
I do not know you, I was sent to your story through little Patrick Diamond.
I am so moved by your families strength and courage and I just wanted you to know that today and everyday I will join you in your prayers for your pretty little Layla, and pray for Jesus to keep her in the palm of his hands, and protect her from the pain of this horific disease.
May God Bless you and Keep you through your days ahead.
Wishing peace and calm, for you your family, your beautiful baby. And that God give you both enough strength to help yourselves and your other beautiful little girls through this. My heart breaks for you all. I am sure, there will be a thousand angles waiting to bring her home to heaven, and that one day you will all be together.
What a wonderful interview on KRBE this morning. I simply cannot fathom the amount of strength you both must have to go through such a difficult time. Your beautiful Layla Grace has truly captured my heart. Never have I cried or prayed for someone so much in my life. She has taught me so much about my life and my children; she has truly “grown my soul”. Layla Grace is an inspiration to all and an angel here on earth. I pray that she feel the warmth and comfort of God’s arms as she makes her journey into Heaven.
I thought I knew what prayer was. I thought I knew true appreciation for the people and things around me that I love. I was wrong on both counts. Your family, your faith, your daughter…have all taught me to look further into my heart…to pray more strongly and love and appreciate more deeply. I am learning from you and will grow into a better person because of you. I will pray for healing for your beautiful girl and your beautiful family.
I am truly moved by your strength. I can not even begin to imagine. I know that i will never ever complain about how long it takes me to unload the dishwasher again or get mad at how many times i have to refold the laundry because the babies insist on helping. Layla has made me very very grateful for every second i get with the kids. I will continue to pray for you Shanna and Layla and the rest of the Family. My heart truly brakes for you.
Today is my 40th birthday and my only wish is for Layla to have peace, comfort, and to somehow feel all the love that is out there for her. xxxooo
Thats soo said i hope shes not going to pass out any second now!
I have just found out about your little one and you must call me. I live in the Cypress area and have a wellness doctor I go to. He is a Christian man who uses natural ways tolet your body heal itself. He has helped my son, my mother in law, and several other friends. He even heald his wifes cancer. Please call me or just call my doctor. God has a plan for your beautiful little one!
Beckie
830-515-4603
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MY GOD BLEES YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AND I WILL PRAY FOR YOU AND MY KIDS WILL PRAY FOR YALL TOO THIS UPSETS ME AND I GOD LOVES HIS BABIES
I have posted this to my Facebook page, so that we can all pray for Layla and your whole family. Layla’s photos are so adorable! Thank you for sharing your story with us, you certainly have such strength and I have so much admiration for that. If you need some extra support as in just reading some easy going positive vibes, dont hesitate to add as a friend on my Facebook account (Given to you as my website). Even if you just need someone to talk to Im happy to be that person. I will be praying for you all, and thinking of you, Leanna Mackenzie xox
Posted on facebook for prayes. I hope to meet this little deposit in heaven when we all get there. Dear Lord, if it be your will and the herb that you provided in the coffee, tea, hot chocolate or capsules of our product can assist in your will and after prayer, or at the very least could provide a better quality of her day left on this earth would you allow them to try it and bless it to keep this child in all of our lives for many years to come. Bless this family, Lord you know their hearts, wants, needs and desires, may your will be done, in Jesus name. Lord spare this child, if the parents are any thing like me they would give their life for their child just as your son gave his life for us. Lord, your promise was that if we ask it shall be given, Lord your word states that if we knock the doors will be open, spare this child. Cure her, you are the alpha and omega, dear Lord spare this child. Amen.
To your family:
Wow I have been following you for about a week or so now. I had a prayer request pop up on my facebook page from a friend of mine and have been following your posts ever since.
I have to say that you have a beautiful, strong fighter on your hands. I have read almost all of your post all the way back to the very first one….many of many of tears I have shed. I don’t know what you are going through but one can only imagine. I know it is a great deal of pain and I am so sorry that it has to be one that has been in your life for such a short period of time. I do have to say that she is an Angel to be sent her to touch so many people and it is amazing to see the work God has done through her. I pray for your family and for Layla that God will heal her from the cancer and the pain. I know there is not much I can do to help with your family or any of that but just know that I will keep your family in my prayers and continue to life Layla up to him.
Thinking and praying……
Christi
First I want to thank God for you and sharing your story. You have beautiful girls. I also believe in pray and miracles. I will pray for your miracle also. Only God knows what is best even if we can’t understand why. I know Layla will be healed one way or the other. My heart goes out to you and your family and tears of sorrow and love for you all. I know Layla has touched so many people she is truly a blessing from God as is all his children. May God bless you all with all my love and prays.
You’re words have impacted me greatly. My heart aches for your family, and I sit here fighting back tears for a family and little girl I’ve never met. All your posts touched my heart, but this one has affected me in a way that will change my life forever. Today I went to the grocery store and my 2 year old was very upset and screaming. I couldn’t wait to get home, and couldn’t wait to put him in for a nap. After reading what you wrote here, instead I am now greatful that my toddler is able to sit in a cart and scream. I am going to appreciate every moment I have with my children, the good and the difficult. You have changed me. My heart and prayers go out to your family and your precious daughter Layla.
Dear Marsh Family, I just became aware of what your precious Layla and your family is going through. It broke my heart into millions of pieces. I will keep praying and I have shared your story with my family to pray for you as well. Derest Layla, you are a beaqutiful angel. I am sorry you are having to go through this. You are such a fighter and of great strength. My heart and prayers are with you indefinately. All of my love Marsh family.
This post has meant so much to me. I have a 9 month old daughter and there are some days I am counting down the minutes until bedtime/naptime. I have learned by reading this that I need to stop and really cherish every minute with her. Layla is such a gift from God. She has blessed my life so much. I am still praying for a miracle and will continue to do so. Our God is a big God and he is capable of miracles. God Bless your family. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.
I just recently had the time to read your posts. My prayers are with your family. My dad was recently diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and told there was nothing that could be done. It took us six weeks but we finally got into MD Anderson. Thank God our outlook is much more positive now.
I can’t help but feel a little guilty about it though. Your family has been through so much and has so much in front of you. God bless you and your family.
Your website was posted by one of my friends on facebook along with a picture of Layla. She is touching peoples lives. Your faith in God will be seen by many. May God give you peace, strenght and comfort at this time. May angels be watching over your precious children. The verse be still and know that I am God keeps coming into my thoughts. He is an awesome God. He is there all around you. I will pray for you and your family.
I just found your website and I’ve been reading through it with tears streaming down my face as my heart just breaks for you and your family. After each post I’ve stared at the comment form for awhile trying to put words together that would somehow convey how I wish you didn’t have to walk this tragic path, but the words don’t come. When I read this, though, it convicted me. So many times I have been frustrated trying to get things done around the house with children underfoot. So many times I have wished for nap time or put my kids to bed early so I could just have a break and I just want to say thank you for opening my eyes while at the same time I am so very sorry that you are suffering such unimaginable loss. I pray that the Lord envelops you in peace that surpasses understanding, that you will cling tightly to Him, and that your family will contrive to press on in the face of this heartbreaking ordeal until the day when you meet again in Heaven.
God bless you and your family.
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Thank you for allowing your family to touch so many lives. As I sat here at read this just now, I have those comments that I say to my children sometimes that are just unkind, that I just regret. But thank you for sharing as I have just asked God to help me better use my time with my children. And to fill our time with love and kindess and just showing them how to love Jesus with all of their hearts. May the Lord fill you with His continual grace and peace!!
After finding your blog today, and not being able to read it without tears, I must say a deep thank you to you for sharing your story. I could not get you and your daughter out of my mind today. I too wished for early bedtimes, naps, few more minutes in front of a cartoon. Today I wished for none of that. I was more patient, kind, and appreciative. I can’t express how your story has affected me. I will honor your daughter by being grateful for every moment with my two boys and girl to be. I will remember that they are blessings not burdens, and at any moment, the simple life that I have with my children could be gone. God Bless you.
marsh family, i just stumbled across your website by accident while looking at a facebook of someone i dont even know. i am not sure that you will even read this because of all the posts you have. what an amazing couple you are. i am a young mother of 4 kids, all under the age of 7. my life has been crazy and i had lost any faith in god i had over the past few years. i find myself getting angry with my kids on a daily basis and counting the time to bedtime so that i can have quiet time, or getting mad about the messy house. i have been having a hard time with one of my oldest daighters lately and i know that i have been dealing with it all wrong, but i didnt stop what i was doing. i started reading your blog page by page and this one stood out to me about your valentines day. i can’t stop crying. i am sad for the loss of your beautiful daughter, but am now more thankful for mine than i have been in a while. she was a beautiful girl and i hope that she is happy and feeling wonderful where she is now. and i hope that your family will grow, remembering the one you lost and staying strong together. thank you for your blog. so many have said this and i am going to also, you have made me have a revalation. i will live my life in a new way after tonight. i cant tell you how much this has touched me. my love and thoughts go to your family.